OBX One Shots

TW! No more trying (John B)

(TW! Suicide, self harm and rape mentions)

You sank into you bed, chugging another beer. Your eyes were red and sore from crying for hours on end. You were tired but couldn't sleep, you knew sleep wouldn't take the pain away.

You went to sip on the beer bottle again but no beer came out. You huffed and threw the bottle at the wall, glass shattering everywhere. You rubbed you red sore eyes.

You looked at your alarm clock, 2:13am. You looked around your room, nothing to do and all alone you began to think, think to deep. It flooded back, all of it at once.

You could feel that dirtbag, Jeremy's hands running down your waist, you tried to shake the feeling but you couldn't. You remembered his attempts, and how you told him no over and over again but he didn't listen.

Instead he took you to a private area, locked the door and pressed you down on a bed and began to hump you from behind slowly. You tried to pull away, but he just held you tighter.

"Let me go" you laughed nervously.

"Oh come on" he began to fiddle with your clothing trying to take of you shirt.

He was completely sober you couldn't smell any ounce of alcohol on him and you were sober enough to know what was going on.

He placed his hand on your mouth.

"Shh people will hear you" he whispered still trying you.

Done with this you pushed him off you and fled the room, tears rolling down your cheeks. You went and found your best friend, John B. He took you away from the party and you told him everything, he advised you to go to the police.

So you did, but nothing was done, they said, "Just another drunk accident" and there was no charges against Jeremey.

You tried to tell your parents but they called you a slut and yelled at you to get out of there house. How did Jeremey have everyone fooled? You had no choice but to move in with John B but you didn't mind.

Most nights you would sneak out and drink until you were blacked out on the floor drunk, then you would cut and cut until blood dripped on the floor. It was the only thing that made you feel something.

Your heart ached from trying over and over again. Feeling nothing this time from the cutting. You thought maybe it was time to leave, not just leave John B, but the planet. You leant over and picked up a pen and paper and began writing.

"To the Pogues and John B, I love you guys, but it's to much. My family doesn't want me and neither does society. I'm sick of feeling his hands on me. I'm done I'm going the peer. Good bye" you folded the paper and stumbled out of the bedroom, slipping the paper under John B's door.

You started to have second thoughts, but everything else managed to get in the way. You starred at John B's door.

"I'm sorry" you whispered.

You turned around, leaving the house and making your way to the peer. You stood there starring into the water.

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John B's POV.

Your eyes fluttered open, you had a strange, unsettling feeling that you couldn't shake. You rubbed your eyes and stepped out of bed.

"Y/N" you shouted, before even leaving your room.

As you approached the door, something slid under your foot. A piece of paper? You picked it up with two fingers and opened it, beginning to read it out loud.

"To the Pogues and John B..." You started. Chuckling slightly, confused at what this was.

"I love you guys, but it's to much." You realised what was happening in the moment and continued reading.

"My family doesn't want me and neither does society. I'm sick of feeling his hands on me. I'm done I'm going the peer. Good bye" tears filled your eye's you couldn't loose your best friend.

You dropped the note on the floor and ran out of the house bare foot.

"Y/N!" You screamed, running through the bushes behind your house to get to the peer, tears poured down your face.

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Your POV.

There was a long moment of hesitation, as you watched the glistening water, then looked up at the bright full moon.

"Why me?" You screamed at the top of your lungs falling to the ground, sobbing loudly.

"Y/N!" You heard shouts, you glanced behind you and saw John B run through the bushes.

He began to get closer and closer until there were only a few metres between you.

You stood up, "I'm sorry" you whispered again falling back into the water.

You let the water take you down, not caring to try and swim.

"No, NO!" You heard John B's muffled screams, then a body pulled you out.

John B sat in front of you soaking wet as you were.

"What happened?" You asked, he didn't reply.

He wrapped his arms around you and then placed his hands in your cheek. You looked into eachothers eyes and then felt his soft lips graze yours.

"Don't ever try and hurt yourself again" he sobbed, you knew you were missing something but everything was okay now.

~A/N if you are feeling this way, tell something and reach out for help, suicide is never the answer, you are loved~