Time skip
Your POV
I'm all settled in. "Thank you again." He says. "No problem." I say. I hold Senjuro and feed him. He's silent. "They really need a woman figure in their lives. A mother in a way." He says. "I'll be here promise. Parenting is hard but I'm sure things will be okay." I say and look up at him.
We sit on the floor. "You'll be here for them too won't you?" I ask. "Yes." He says. "Then we'll have no problems." I say. Kyojuro is taking a nap. "I'll have to make a list to go shopping. We don't have any groceries and I never finished mine." I say. "We can go when Kyojuro gets up." He says. "Okay." I say.
Time skip
I put Senjuro in the sling I made and get my basket. "Ready?" I ask Kyojuro. He puts his shoes on. "Yes ma'am." He says. He takes my hand. We leave the house. "I can carry the basket for you." Shinjuro says.
"Thank you." I say and hand it to him. We go through the market place people move out of the way automatically. Does Shinjuro have some kind of reputation? They notice me as well. I guess they remember yesterday. He doesn't seem bothered by this. I go to a vegetable stand.
I examine the vegetables. He basically presses himself against my back. "Everything okay you're taking awhile?" He asks. My face feels a bit warm. "Yes I'm just picky when it comes to ingredients." I say. He stays against me. Why isn't he moving is he comfortable like this.
I got a large amount of vegetables and we leave the stand. "Are we not gonna eat meat?" Kyojuro asks. "Of course we will. You need vegetables to get healthy and strong. Now what's your favorite meal?" I ask. "Sweet potatoes!" He says excitedly. I giggle. "I'll be sure to make some then." I say.
Shinjuro's POV
It looks good on her being a mother. She seems so happy and content. It's like she is their real mother. Kyojuro is really happy with her. I watch them walk. Her smile could light the night. Is this wrong though.
To have feelings for her. She's so comforting and relaxing. A great listener and so kind. Isn't this wrong though? To move on so quickly. I shouldn't be falling for someone so much. Plus I've talked about her so much to her.
It must be annoying. Why would anyone want to hear about a past relationship then be with them? Maybe she's just showing me pity. I did offer her a job though so that's probably the only reason why she's staying. Yet why does it not bother me thinking she may feel that way.
Why do I feel this way about her. Some guys were looking at her so the only thing I could think of doing was to press myself against her. She must feel awkward about it she could have screamed or hit me. Yelled at me or something. She didn't though.
"Shinjuro." Her voice calls out to me. I so want to be by her side. "Shinjuro." She says and pats my arm. "Hm yes." I say. "Do you have any request for meals? I could make something you like." She says. So considerate. I just think. "I don't mind I'm not a picky person." I say.
Your POV
That's not what I asked. Kyojuro tugs my hand. Hm. I lean down. He tells me a few dishes his dad likes. "Thank you Kyojuro that was a big help." I say. Shinjuro looks at me.
"Tonight will be a surprise Mr. Not picky." I say. "Okay." He says. "Daddy." Kyojuro says. "Hm?" Shinjuro asks. "Hold (Y/n)'s hand it'll be nice. Her hands are super soft." Kyojuro says. My face feels warm. What do I say to that?
I hope he doesn't get mad at him. He just takes my hand. We're silent for a moment. "It is very soft Kyojuro." He says. Do I hold it back? I decide to. He rubs his thumb against my hand.
I don't know how much I can take of this. We get to the meat shop. I get all kinds of meat then we go home. He holds my hand again. Will this be a regular thing now?....Does he need me? More than just being a mother to the boys.
We get back and I go put the groceries up and put Senjuro in his crib. Kyojuro goes to his room leaving me and Shinjuro alone. "I want to know something. Please be honest with me." He says. "Okay I'm listening." I say. "Do you pity us at all?" He asks.
"Not one bit. It is sad to lose someone that was very important to you. I'm happy that I can be here. To be truthful I've always wanted children. Being a figure in Kyojuro and Senjuro just makes me want to be a mother even more. So I'm very happy to be in your lives. Yours too Shinjuro. I've never met a man as kind as you. I'm glad that I've met you." I say. He holds my cheek and leans in closer. I lean in. He kisses me and I kiss him back and it feels so good. Should I really be doing this though?
I pull away. "I can't." I say. He just looks at me. "I just feel like you aren't completely ready for something like this. Especially with me." I say and look away. He rubs his thumb against my cheek.
I lay my head into his hand. "If you really feel that way then let's take some time to think about this. I don't want you to feel like I'm rushing into this. I want you to feel okay with this." He says. "Okay." I say. He puts his forehead to mine. "Wait for me if you can." He says. "I will." I say. I want to kiss him oh so desperately. We pull apart. I can't think about that though.
TBC...
