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ChAPTER 12 - Where Do Broken Hearts Go

ZAYN POV

1 month. Cassy hasn’t talked to me in a month. I never thought this amount of pain would be possible. I have been useless these past few weeks. Been missing a lot of meetings and promos. I didn’t feel like going on with life. I couldn’t bear not being hers. I didn’t think it would come to this. I feel so stupid and reckless.

Today is the first day of rehearsals. I’m not sure I’m ready to work again, let alone see Harry. I haven’t talked to anyone of the boys.

“Zayn, my man!” Louis hugged me as I opened the door to the studio. “How you’ve been? Heard you were sick bro, but you didn’t really replied to me so I thought maybe you were just asleep?” he questioned. “Sorry, yeah, I wasn’t feeling well.” I guess Harry was too busy with Cassy to even tell anyone here what happened. “It’s nice to see you again!” Liam approached me and hugged me as well. “You too. Where’s Niall?” I asked. “Oh, he’s coming in a bit late.” Louis answered.

Harry was just sitting at the end of the studio, busy with his phone. He’s probably talking to Cassy. I wonder how she is. I still think about her.  There wasn’t a day that I didn’t think about what she was up to or how she is. I miss her so damn much.

“Harry! Zayn’s here!” Louis said cheerfully, “Yeah.” he just nodded. He’s still mad at me. I don’t know how we can be back to normal if he can’t even look at me for more than five seconds.

Our manager, Tim scheduled for us to have a meeting with Simon about the new album. I don’t want to do it anymore. I don’t think I can do it anymore.

HARRY POV

“What do you mean?” Niall said, confused. “He can’t just do that, can he?” Liam questioned, “But the contract said we can’t alter anything in the middle of negotiations!” Louis exclaimed. What is going on? “Harry! Thank God you’re here!” Tim pulled me inside the conference room and had me join the other boys right away. “What’s wrong?” I asked as when I saw their faces. “Zayn just quit.” Tim said, quietly. “What do you mean, quit? Quit the band?” I asked. “Yes. I just got the word from Simon. They had a meeting last night, it was pretty urgent.” Tim further explained. “But how can he let go of Zayn that easily? Our contract should be more binding than that?” I was so confused, I didn’t know how to comprehend this. “Well, that’s what I thought as well, but Zayn hired lawyers and apparently they found a loop hole to get him out earlier.” Tim laid out the transcript of the post that will be published later on for all the fans to see. “This is terrible.” Liam said. “What can we do?” Niall asked, “He’s not answering any of my calls.” Louis added. “I don’t really know what’s gonna happen next.” I ended.

CASSY POV

Harry went home from rehearsals pretty early today. I wanted to ask why but I’m also trying to avoid any stories about Zayn.

“Hey!” I went up to him and smiled. “Hi Cass.” he smiled and hugged me really tight. “Harry? You okay?” I asked, leading him onto the couch. “I’m not sure how to say this,” he started and I felt nervous, like something big is coming, “Zayn kind of...” of course it’s about him. What is it this time, I wonder. “What, Harry?” I asked him, “he... Zayn... He just quit the band.” I heard Harry say. “WHAT?” I sat there completely dumbfounded, “Tim just told us, and they’re going to release a statement this afternoon.” Harry looked so upset I didn’t even know what to say to him so I just hugged him like how he has been consoling me for the past month. I want to be strong for him this time around.

Zayn just quit his band. Again, with no clear explanations on why he did it, funny how he’s making it a habit already. I cannot believe he’d do that. What a sudden turn of events. They’re at the top of their game and he just gave it all up. What’s the excuse for that? He hurt the five most amazing friends he could ever have, and later this afternoon, he’s going to break millions of hearts. What the hell is wrong with him?

ZAYN POV

From Cassy

Can we talk?

I finally got a message from the one person I’ve been waiting for. I answered right away.

To Cassy

Of course. When? Where?

From Cassy

Park. 2pm.

I went to the park right away. I don’t care if I wait for hours. I’m just glad she finally decided to talk to me.

She’s walking towards me. She looks stunning as per usual. I missed her so much, I miss seeing her smile, her laugh, the way she crinkles her nose when she gets annoyed at me, everything.

“Hi.” I greeted her with the biggest smile on my face. “I’m not gonna stay long.” she wasn’t happy still. “Okay. You wanted to talk?” I asked, waiting for her response. “Why did you quit your band?” Harry must have told her already. I sighed, shaking my head, looking at the trees that were surrounding us. “You met with me to ask me that?” “Yeah.” she nodded. “I lost all motivation to move forward with it. And frankly, I just want to live a simple life.” I explained. “Wow Zayn, how selfish.” she mentioned. “I’m selfish?” I was a little taken aback by her comment. “Yes, Zayn, selfish. Do you even realize how broken your band mates are? Or even the fact that later this afternoon, once the announcement has been made, that millions and millions of your fans’ hearts would be broken too?” I didn’t really think of it that way, I was just focused on getting her back, and I don’t want to do anything else but that. “I... I hope they’d understand. I just don’t want to do something half-heartedly.” I tried to defend myself. “Then fix yourself, Zayn. Ask for a break, but come back. We both know this is more than just a silly band. Lives have been dedicated to this and it’s far more important than you think.” she said, standing up, walking away from me. I ran after her and stood before her to make her stop. “I don’t need a break, Cassy. I don’t need anything or anyone else. I just need you. I need you back.” I confessed.