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CHAPTER 8 - Clouds

PRESENT DAY

CASSY POV

It’s been a week since Zayn left me. I’m devastated. I haven’t had a proper meal since then. I cry every night hoping it’ll tire me out until I fall asleep but to no avail. I couldn’t get sleep. I just kept on replaying and replaying everything that he said to me that night. He said he got this girl pregnant. As stupid as I may sound, I practically begged him to stay with me. I wanted to work it out even after what happened. I wasn’t quite sure if I fully understood the weight of what I told him I’d do but what I’m sure of is that I don’t want to lose him. I didn’t want to lose him.

Everything was perfect, until that last tour. I know he’s tired, I know he didn’t want any complications, I know that, but he could’ve just talked to me about it. I would’ve understood, I always make sure to compromise with him, even if it means me swallowing my pride all the time. What’s so different now that made him give me up just like that? I just don’t understand.

DAY 10 POST BREAK-UP

Still haven’t heard anything from him. Not even a single explanation on why he was so eager to remove me from his life.

“Cassy, you have to move on at some point.” I heard Gemma say to me as she tried to pull me out of my duvet. “Gem, please.” I groaned, not wanting to get out of bed. “You know, you’re lucky it’s our school break, I think Zayn thought of this one well enough to—“ she started to comment and then I heard her stop. I looked up to see Harry coming, “That’s a bit harsh of you to mention him now, is it Gem?” he looked at Gemma and motioned her to get out. “I’m sorry Cass. I hope you feel better!” she sprinted out of the door.

“Hey.” Harry whispered. “Hey.” I answered. “I know you’re in a difficult situation right now babe, can we talk about it?” he asked. It has been 10 days since Zayn decided to leave and I still haven’t told anyone what happened, except for the fact that he left. “I... I guess so.” I said, “Okay.” he helped me up my bed and sat next to me against my headboard. “So...” he was waiting for me to talk. “Yeah, he just came home one night and told me he wanted to nothing of this anymore.” I said staring blankly into my room. “That’s it?” he asked, clearly confused judging by the tone of his voice. “Well, he told me he got a girl pregnant before that.” I heard Harry gasped. “What the fuck?” he turned to face me. “Cassy!” and he pulled me in for a hug, a hug that I know is meant for someone he feels sorry for. “If you think that’s the worst part, you’re wrong.” I pat him on his shoulder. “It isn’t?” he questioned. “I told him it’s okay. I told him I’m willing to work through it,” I paused, looked at Harry, and continued, “But he wanted none of it. He didn’t want me to be in his life anymore.” I ended. “That’s messed up.” Harry sighed and took my hand. “Tell me about it.” I sighed in reply. “You know what, I don’t want you to be sad anymore. And I know that may be premature especially with the intensity of what happened but I still wanna try and make you happy.” he said with a cheeky smile. “What do you have in mind, Styles?” I asked, and although I’m still gutted, I know in my heart this is not helping me in any way. I couldn’t help but feel a little lighter because of this cupcake of a person that’s trying to cheer me up. “Let’s go party! Woop! Woop!” and he did a stupid little dance everyone knows and loves.

I can’t believe I let Harry drag me to this club. Sure, it’s a distraction, but I’m bored. He seems to be busy greeting every single person that comes by our table. “Hey, Cassy!” I heard someone say from behind. I turned around and saw a guy so familiar, I’m sure I know him from somewhere. Plus, he clearly knows me. I feel so bad, what’s his name? What’s his name? Ugh. “Chris, remember?” Chris. Chris. Uhm... “Mr. Palmer?” I was pleasantly surprised. “Cassy, call me Chris. Stop being so formal.” he chuckled. “Oh, right. Right, sorry.” I laughed with him. “How you’ve been?” he asked, getting closer cause the music seem to just get louder and louder. “Oh, I’m good, thanks. First night out in a while.” I mentioned. “Well, I’m glad I stumbled upon you here.” he said grinning.