Mr Brightside || Danny Gonzalez x Drew Gooden

chapter fourteen // it was only a kiss

October 11th, 2019

Only a couple of days left. We went to the rock and roll hall of fame today and I gotta say it was pretty sick, although Kurtis was pretty aggressive for some reason, he kept chucking his water bottle at us and chasing us around, splashing us with it. I mean it was pretty hot today though so he was kinda doing us a favor, jk it was pretty fucking annoying.

The hall of fame was actually really cool though, also they were playing Pitbull which was a plus. I know, I know, yes I did hate Pitbull at the beginning of the tour but I gotta say I have taken a liking to him. His music just gives off good vibes because it has been literally all we have been listening to while on tour.

On the way back from the museum we were all taking turns being the aux. And Jake Doolittle, our photographer turned on that one song, Mr. Brightside by The Killers.

"It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this. It was only a kiss. It was only a kiss."

I felt my stomach drop at that line and snuck a glance at Danny to see that he was already staring at me, his eyes glistening for forgiveness. As soon as I met his eyes he coughed and looked away. We were doing well, there was nothing between us since that moment in the bathroom, we didn't even hold hands before each show anymore. I was finally thinking that it was over and we would be going back to being friends. But obviously, that's not true. This whole situation really did just start with a single kiss, it was harmless. Or so we thought.

I felt the sudden desire to grab onto him, to never let him escape my grasp. Kiss him until we both are gasping for air. Feel his body, make it mine. Only mine. I bite my lip as my mind wanders, exploring every possibility of us. No, I can't do this. I shut my eyes and turned away and faced the window, I felt Danny's eyes burning into the back of my neck but I couldn't look at him. Not then. I swallowed as a lump began to form in my throat. Fuck me.

We told Kurtis, although it looked like he knew the whole time. I suppose we weren't great at the whole sneaking around shit. He seemed ok with it, well at least after he scolded us for not telling him sooner and going behind our wives' backs. But it wasn't like we needed him to be fine with us, I had put an end to it. And as much as I know that it was the right thing to do, I can't stop the desire to take Danny in my hands and steal a taste. And this time, to hold onto him. Let us see where we can go, with no limits. Danny caught me staring and I had to shake my head free of the fantasies before I brought them to life.