Love Is Pain

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On the couch

Shanté: ...if you want a DNA test-

Jonathan: There's no need for that. ..I believe you.

Shanté: ...I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. We just...you know.

Jonathan: I understand. & Roman knew?

Shanté: Yeah. I called him to help me move my couch & he sorta already was onto me so I just told him.

Jonathan: You didn't want me to know?

Shanté: I was scared.

Jonathan: Of what?

Shanté: ...I don't know.

*time skip*

Shanté: I guess you could say it's because I thought you hated me.

Jonathan: I hate what you did, I don't hate you.

Shanté: *sighs* I'm so sorry. I-

Jonathan: It's fine now.

Shanté: No it's not. I-If it makes you feel any better, Zay turned out to be really fucking crazy & I had to move. *nervously chuckles*

Jonathan: ..what do you mean crazy?

Shanté: ...u-uh....he's just..crazy..you know? He's uh-he's annoying &-

Jonathan: Don't lie to me. What do you mean by crazy?

Shanté: ..he had issues.

Jonathan: Shanté, I'm not going to ask you again.

Shanté: *sighs* Ok...so you know how I called you & uh told you about us kissing?

Jonathan: Yeah.

Shanté: I didn't tell you the whole story.

Jonathan: Why not?

Shanté: Because I felt so guilty & I knew you were going to breakup with me either way.

Jonathan: ...tell me what happened.

Shanté: Alright.

*time skip*

Shanté: So then we're back at the apartment & we're watching a movie &...& his hand travels-

Jonathan: I don't want to hear anymore.

Shanté: ...

Jonathan: ...did he rape you?

Shanté: No he didn't do anything more except scare the living hell out of me. He was speaking like...like he was just so confident that something was going to happen between us because you weren't around & he somehow knew we weren't on the best of terms & he told me that-*voice shakes* that you weren't going to protect me & he said some other stuff but I don't-I don't remember but-

He pulls me into an unexpected hug & I sink into him. I rest my head on his neck & he puts his hand on my head. I cry harder not because of everything that's happened but because I miss him so damn much. His smell, the comfort of his warm skin...I hate myself so much for what I've done

*time jump*

Jonathan: He stalked you too? Why didn't you tell me this sooner?

Shanté: ...well you see, there's this thing that happened between us. Yeah, it's usually referred to as a "breakup" so I couldn't exactly, you know, tell you. *sniff / awkwardly chuckles*