Love Is Pain

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________longer chapter_______

*time jump* (After they write down all their opinions on the relationship or whatever)

Jonathan: So how do you want to do this?

Shanté: Uuuh we could just read them?

Jonathan: Well no shit. *softly chuckles* I meant are we reading them out loud or what?

Shanté: I don't know. Do you want to or do you think it'll cause an argument?

Jonathan: *sighs* Good question.

Shanté: Yeah...but I mean maybe we should read it out loud, you know? Like-like read one by one & say why...I don't know.

Jonathan: ...

I feel like I just said the stupidest thing & had the most idiotic idea of all time. I watch him as he stares at his computer screen. He looks like he's contemplating on if he wants me to know these things or not. I get a feeling of fear & think about everything I put on my list. This is definitely gonna cause problems

Jonathan: Ok.

I widen my eyes because of how surprised I am of his answer

Shanté: ...are you sure?

My heart begins to palpitate & I instantly want to go back in time to stop myself from even mentioning a list

Jonathan: Yeah, I'm sure. Let's do it.

Shanté: O-Ok.

I deeply exhale before giving him my laptop. His laptop sits in his lap & I wonder if he's gonna give it to me or if I have to wait. I want to ask him but I'm scared of what he'll say

Jonathan: Do you want me to give you my list or wait until we get through yours?

Shanté: You could give me yours. We could do them one by one.

Jonathan: I thought we were already doing that.

Shanté: No we are. I meant like you read one of mine, we talk, I read one of yours, we talk-

Jonathan: Oooh ok, ok. I get it. You wanna go first?

Shanté: As in read the first thing or-

Jonathan: Talking about your list.

Shanté: Oh sure. I guess.

Jonathan: Ok.

My heartbeat speeds up as I think of how this'll make him feel. What if he feels like a horrible boyfriend? He's not...there's just regular probably common relationship problems. I don't want him to read it anymore

Shanté: ...maybe we shouldn't do this. I-I mean you're hesitating so clearly you don't want to do it either.

Jonathan: Just because I'm hesitating doesn't mean I don't want to do it.

Shanté: So why are you hesitating?

Jonathan: Why are you hesitating?

Shanté: I'm not hesitating.

Jonathan: Yes you are.

Shanté: How am I hesitating?

Jonathan: You're hesitating with your words.

Shanté: No I'm not.

Jonathan: That's because you're not realizing it.

Shanté: Ok.

Jonathan: Are we doing this or not?

Shanté: We are. Why are you getting upset?

Jonathan: I'm not getting upset.