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*time jump* (After they write down all their opinions on the relationship or whatever)
Jonathan: So how do you want to do this?
Shanté: Uuuh we could just read them?
Jonathan: Well no shit. *softly chuckles* I meant are we reading them out loud or what?
Shanté: I don't know. Do you want to or do you think it'll cause an argument?
Jonathan: *sighs* Good question.
Shanté: Yeah...but I mean maybe we should read it out loud, you know? Like-like read one by one & say why...I don't know.
Jonathan: ...
I feel like I just said the stupidest thing & had the most idiotic idea of all time. I watch him as he stares at his computer screen. He looks like he's contemplating on if he wants me to know these things or not. I get a feeling of fear & think about everything I put on my list. This is definitely gonna cause problems
Jonathan: Ok.
I widen my eyes because of how surprised I am of his answer
Shanté: ...are you sure?
My heart begins to palpitate & I instantly want to go back in time to stop myself from even mentioning a list
Jonathan: Yeah, I'm sure. Let's do it.
Shanté: O-Ok.
I deeply exhale before giving him my laptop. His laptop sits in his lap & I wonder if he's gonna give it to me or if I have to wait. I want to ask him but I'm scared of what he'll say
Jonathan: Do you want me to give you my list or wait until we get through yours?
Shanté: You could give me yours. We could do them one by one.
Jonathan: I thought we were already doing that.
Shanté: No we are. I meant like you read one of mine, we talk, I read one of yours, we talk-
Jonathan: Oooh ok, ok. I get it. You wanna go first?
Shanté: As in read the first thing or-
Jonathan: Talking about your list.
Shanté: Oh sure. I guess.
Jonathan: Ok.
My heartbeat speeds up as I think of how this'll make him feel. What if he feels like a horrible boyfriend? He's not...there's just regular probably common relationship problems. I don't want him to read it anymore
Shanté: ...maybe we shouldn't do this. I-I mean you're hesitating so clearly you don't want to do it either.
Jonathan: Just because I'm hesitating doesn't mean I don't want to do it.
Shanté: So why are you hesitating?
Jonathan: Why are you hesitating?
Shanté: I'm not hesitating.
Jonathan: Yes you are.
Shanté: How am I hesitating?
Jonathan: You're hesitating with your words.
Shanté: No I'm not.
Jonathan: That's because you're not realizing it.
Shanté: Ok.
Jonathan: Are we doing this or not?
Shanté: We are. Why are you getting upset?
Jonathan: I'm not getting upset.
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