Love Is Pain

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Roman & Jonathan's apartment (next day)

Jonathan: This is why I worked so hard so this wouldn't be a problem for her but..we're not together. It'd be weird to pay for her school since we aren't together anymore.

Roman: So use the baby daddy excuse. Tell her you'd help her pay to take the stress off.

Jonathan: I want to pay for the whole thing.

Roman: So tell her it's a thank you for bailing you out of jail.

Jonathan: ...wait what?

Roman: Oh, yeah, I got the money from her.

Jonathan: What the fuck? Roman, why did you ask her?! She's pregnant!

Roman: I didn't ask her, she offered & wouldn't leave me alone until I said yes.

Jonathan: You couldn't have said something like "pay half"?

Roman: Ok you're forgetting the reason why I told you that...I actually wasn't supposed to but oh well.

Jonathan: Why did she pay?

Roman: Because she's still in love with you just like you're still in love her.

Jonathan: I'm not-

Roman: We're not about to start all the way over with this denial shit

Jonathan: Shut the fuck up about these levels.

Roman: So you're paying for her to go to school or?

Jonathan: I am. I have to pay her back.

Roman: You have to pay her back or you want to pay her because you love her?

Jonathan: I'll see you later. *leaves*

Shanté's apartment

Shanté: *opens the door*

Jonathan: Why did you pay for my bail?

Shanté: Hey?

Jonathan: Shanté.

*time skip*

Jonathan: *sighs* Do you even know what I did?

Shanté: I don't have to know what you did to bail you out.

Jonathan: ..do you want to know?

I hesitate to answer the question. I'm afraid that what he'll tell me will make me see him as a completely different person & I don't want that but on the other hand I am curious

Shanté: Will it make me see you differently?

Jonathan: I don't know how to answer that question for you.

Shanté: & I don't know if I want to know or not.

Jonathan: Well I'll tell you whenever you want to know.

Shanté: Mmkay.

Jonathan: But I'm paying for you school, ok. If you want to go, I got you.

Shanté: I don't want you to.

Jonathan: I'm going to.

Shanté: Jonathan we aren't together anymore. You don't have to-

Jonathan: But you went on ahead & paid for my bail. We weren't even talking & you did it, so why can't I just do this for you? Why is it so hard for you to let me show you that I love you?

Jonathan's POV

She looks at me with a slightly shocked look on her face & I realized what I had just said. Instead of saying something, I wait for her to speak. I can tell she's trying not to cry & it takes me back to when we used to argue. We're not together anymore & we still argue. Roman's thoughts on thinking we'd get back together fades every time we argue or even when I notice the changes between us