TW:Heavy su!cide, self h@rm
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I lazily look to my phone.
congratulations! 1 month clean from self harm!
One hard month. One month where I could had died several times, my rope thoughts cursing my mind into doing such things. My rope thoughts that seem to never end. My mind , like a toy train circling around waiting for a new outcome.
She was the one to save me that night. The night where I could've died by my hand. But not the others. I've made a 'temporary' rope and no one noticed when I was putting my head through the loop, yet they were right there.
No one would care if I were to disappear. They wouldn't even notice if I left, and if they did they wouldn't worry. I'm a pathetic nobody with noting left to loose.
My eyes daze away from my phone as I turn around, my rope thoughts beginning to come back.
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Im finishing this during class lol
chair.
