If Only I Can

Everything To Nothing

PROLOGUE:

I had everything I could ever wish for. A perfect life; though there's no such thing as perfect. Rich, Wealthy, I have everything. But above all those things, what made my life as perfect as it seems was because I had you. I couldn't imagine what my life would be like without having you in it. Been together for 5 years, and I swore to God that I would never be loving anyone in such way again. Ever. I loved you that much. Then one night, everything disappeared. And by everything I meant you. My everything. A loud and thunderous crash took you away from me. Death could never be compared to the pain I felt. I did everything in my power to save you, for 6 months you were unconscious; I never dare leave your side. I want to be there. I want to be the first person you see when you wake up.
"Hijo, I think it would be best if you will stop seeing our daughter when she wakes up.. The doctor told us that she will probably have a mild amnesia and forget her most recent memories.. We all think it would be best if you would stay away from our daughter then on." Tita Jean told me straight to the face. " What? Tita you don't understand, I can't live without Anastashia.. Tita please, don't do this to me.. Kung kinakailangan kong araw-araw ipakilala sa kanya kung sino ako sa buhay niya, gagawin ko.. Just don't ask me to leave her.. You're asking for too much.." I said kneeling to the ground, tears strolling my face.. Hindi ko kaya.. Hindi ko kayang iwanan sya.. " I'm sorry Hijo, please understand. This will be the last time we'll talk. Para ito sa ikabubuti ng lahat. Para kay Anastashia din ito. She must not be forced to remember things. It would lead her to frustration." "Tita hindi ko siya pipilitin! Pinapangako ko, hihintayin ko hanggang sa maalala nya ako.." I sounded so broken, so helpless, so hurt. "Nathan, Hijo wag mong gawin ito sa sarili mo.. " And that's the last thing I have heard from tita Jean. Matapos nun, naglaho sila ng parang bula..

CHAPTER 1
Nathan's P.O.V:
It's been 2 years since the last time I saw her. Two years na din akong parang pakawala sa mundong ito. ' You can't stay like this Nathan, pull yourself together.' Said my conscience. Pero how can I pull myself together if my only reason to make things right is gone? I MISS HER. I so fucking miss my Anastashia. I miss the man whom I become when I'm with her. And I know that nobody seems to understand the way I feel. Minsan nga parang baliw na ako sa paningin nila. Hindi ko rin sila masisisi. All I know is that titino lang ulit ako kung babalik sya sa akin.

" Mr. Rodriguez! You're spacing out again! Baka nakakalimutan mong pumapasok ka pa din sa unibersidad na to dahil mga magulang mo ang may ari nito?! But aside from that reason, I see no other points why I should not fail you in my class! " oh, right. Nasa klase pa pala ako ng babaeng 'to. I looked at her with a death glare and sighed heavily. I heard my classmates murmuring, ' Tama si teacher! Sus, sayang kagwapuhan nya! Nakaka turn-off sya, siguro kaya wala syang girlfriend kasi bobo sya!' I smirked on that thought. Kung tutuusin nga kayo pang kababaihan ang naghahabol sa isang katulad kung, gwapo, mayaman at sikat.'kaso pakawala' Nag salita nanaman ang konsensya ko. T.T Kampihan ba naman ang mga walang kwentang babae na'to? I stared outside the window and just ignored them, pero masyado ako pinoprovoke ng teacher nato. " What? Say something! Come on Mr. Rodriguez, ipagtanggol mo ang sarili mo like you always do!" Hindi na ako nakatiis." With all due respect Mrs. Whoever-you-are. If you intend to keep on reprimanding me for not paying attention in your class, baka mapilitan akong ipatanggal ka sa trabaho mo. You're not my baby sitter so stop watching over me. And believe me or not, I know wayyy a lot more than the loads of crap you're discussing right now. " I walked out the room and went to the Arc Garden, ' Anastashia and I's favorite place'. I sat on the grassy spot under the shade of the tree. I closed my eyes..