If Only I Can

Chapter 4: Walk Around The School Grounds

Nathan's P.O.V:

We took a walk around the school grounds, besides hindi pa naman kasi tapos ang ipinagagawa ko kay Artchie. Today must be perfect, because that's the way it was way back before we lost each other. I have to show her everything; every single detail of it. And pagkatapos ng lahat, if she'll find it in herself na mahal pa nya ako, if ever I win her back,hindi na fake marriage ang hihingin ko sa kanya; I want the real thing with her. Because I am more than sure that there's only her whom I want to tie myself with. "San ba tayo pupunta?" I came back to reality as I heard her ask. " Uhm, I will show you the continuation of yesterday. Will you allow me?" She gasped and looked away. For some reasons, I felt nervous. Para syang naiilang sa sinabi ko. "Uh, p-pero okay lang Anastashia kung ayaw mo na. Pwede mo namang sabihin sa'kin. Di natin ipipilit ang ayaw mo." I lied. Syempre nasaktan ako. Crap, my heart stung. She looked at me and I forced a smile, heck I look stupid,I know. Pero I'm only stupid for her and no one else. "Sira. Syempre naman noh.. Gusto ko ding malaman yun.. I just felt excited and wished I knew everything.." she said this while slightly punching my arm. Aack! The mutants inside my stomach swarmed and they went for a twirl. I slightly covered my face with my palm, dude, its gay to let your girl see how much you blush.

I laughed anxiously and she laughed as well then we continued walking. Wala akong masagot eh, kaya yun tumahimik nalang ako. Nakarating kami sa driveway sa may mini forest, then I stopped walking. She didn't noticed at first, kaya lakad pa din sya ng lakad tapos lumingon sya. " oh, ba't ka tumigil?" I smiled at her. "Dito sya.... nagtapat ng pag ibig sayo. " She just stared at me and her face starts to flush. She looked away. I went near her and kneeled in front of her. Nagulat sya sa ginawa ko, I know. Sobrang corny ko kasi nang mga panahon nayun. At nagkakaganun lang ako dahil sa kanya. I held her hands while I kneel. She slowly turned to face me,"A-anong ginagawa mo tan? T-Tumayo ka nga.. Tinitingnan tayo ng mga tao Tan.." Natawa naman ako dun." Alam mo, yan din ang sinabi mo sa kanya nuon.." She turned even redder. "Lumuhod sya sa harap mo matapos ang morning assembly, kahit nasa college department tayo ngayon, ganitong ganito ang ginawa nya. Tapos pinatayo mo sya, pero sabi nya 'Tashia, makinig ka muna sa sasabihin ko.' He remained kneeling and he slowly kissed your hands." I looked at her at dahan dahan kong hinalikan ang mga kamay nya.

"Tapos, sabi nya. 'Tashia, I'm no Jerry Mcguirre. I don't need you to complete me..And I don't want that. Because what I want is for us to find all the missing pieces of life and patch them together. Its way better than completing me right? Anastashia, I don't know what you think of me pero ang alam ko lang dapat ko ng sabihin to' kasi kung hindi baka sumabog na'tong puso ko. I, Nathan Rodriguez, the most handsome and the hottest__ haha syempre nainis ka nun tapos sabi nya, 'joke lang. Eto seryoso na.. I, Nathan Rodriguez, is the luckiest man to have fallen inlove with you, Anastashia Loise Enrique.. I promise to love you in all ways possible and hold you as gentle as I could. And also be the one to run to you whenever you need me.. I don't need your yes now Tashia, I can wait for as long as I should.. But know that my feelings won't change. Mahal kita." I turned to looked at her and found her teary-eyed. I stood, "Oh, bakit?"" Its so too good to be true Tan.." I laughed at her softly tapos," Pero, hindi ka naniwala. You doubted him and you thought na pinagtritripan kalang nya." She looked confused and said," So I was that hard-to-get?" "Hah! Sinabi mo pa!" We laughed and I pulled her to the center of the quadrangle.

"Pero para patunayan na totoo yun, ito ang ginawa nya.." I looked at her and smiled. Then I shouted," All students who hears me shouting right now. Out of your room and look outside!" The place was so silent, so probably classes were going on,but hell I didn't care; just like before. She pinched my waist and said,"Huy! Are you insane?! Ma priprincipal tayo nyannn!" I laughed at her and heard her say "Oh.My.God." while she was looking up all over the building. I smiled and turned to look as well, the building's corridors were crowded and everyone was looking down, heck even the professors! But that won't rattle my chains. I faced them and shouted, "I, Nathan Rodriguez is madly inlove with this woman-- Anastashia Enrique! You are all witnesses, and to those guys who wants to make a move on her, I'm sorry!" I heard the crowd laughed and cheered. "Bless my love, Mahal na mahal kita Anastashia." Then everyone clapped and shouted congratulations.

Anastashia's P.O.V:

Was he insane or something?! Sumigaw ba naman sya ng ganun!.. "Bless my love, Mahal na mahal kita Anastashia." He said these words and took my hands to kiss them.. Grabe, ang lakas ng kabog ng puso ko..I feel like his hearing every pound of my heart sa lakas nito.. I looked away as I felt my face heating up."Tapos yun.. Pero hindi mo pa sya sinagot dun ha. " "Huy Tan.. Hindi monaman kasi kailangang gawin pa lahat yun eh.. ""Of course I had to, you need to know everything Anastashia." "Naniniwala naman ako eh.. Tsaka teka,. Nathan Rodriguez? Eh diba ikaw yun? Hahaha. Sa ginawa mo, sayo tuloy ako kinilig! Para kasing ikaw yung may gusto sakin eh.." I mustard all my courage to say this. Of course its him, I know that already. But he doesn't know that I know. Napaubo sya sa mga sinabi ko. His face was flushed, " Ah,Ha? K-Kasi ano, W-Wla yun noh parang alam mo na. Heh, e-example lang. T-Talaga? K-kinilig ka sakin?""Oo naman, ang sweet kasi nang mga sinabi at ginawa mo kanina."

" Eh.. pano kung.. ako talaga yung lalaking yun?" That caught me off guard. I didn't see that coming." H-Huh? In your face noh! A-Asa ka pa! :P dyan ka na nga!" I started walking away when I started feeling flushed. Great. Good job blowing things out of proportion Tashia. I heard his footsteps run towrds me, "huy Tashing! Joke lang! Kaw naman ohh." "Tashing kajan? Jeje mo ha! Ewan ko sayo feeling mo minsan! Kainis ka! "I said mockingly. I heard him laugh and pinched my cheeks,"Araaay!" "Sobrang namiss lang kita :)" I looked at him and smiled,. I can't say anything more. Then narealize ko na baka isa ito sa mga dahilan kung bakit minahal ko tong lalaking to. His boldness, his simple yet heart melting deeds for the one he loves.. Yung tipong hindi sya mahihiyang sabihin sa buong mundo na mahal nya ang isang tao.. Nakakabaliw lang, basta alam kong mas marami pa akong minahal sa kanya.. and I will let him show them to me.