Crashing Into You || Edward Cullen/OC || BWWM

Chapter 13 - The Baseball Game

Abby was making her way into her bedroom after finishing the entirety of the movie with her aunt and sister and then heading to shower. She spots Edward seated on the edge of her bed, wearing a smile on his face. 

"Hey" he greets, his tone airy and light.

"Hi" Abby says, "how long have you been waiting for me?" she questions, feeling bad about making him wait.

"You were spending some time with your family, love, there's nothing wrong with that" he replies in sweet reassurance.

"You're too good for me" she says, putting her dirty clothes in her clothing bin before putting her toiletry bag away too.

"And here I was under the impression that it was you who was too good for me" he replies sincerely as she made her way toward him, joining him on her bed as they lay beside one another. "If I wanted to try something, would you let me?" he asks her.

"It depends" Abby says, "what do you want to try?" she asks him.

"I want...to kiss you" he admits sheepishly, feeling his courage waver as he finished his sentence. Abby blushes at this but she nods and gives him her consent.

"Okay" she says as they sat up and gently took her face into his hands, hesitating a bit as Abby's heart raced in her chest.

He kisses her.

A tender, soft and sweet kiss before drawing back a bit as Abby opened her eyes to meet his gaze. Edward kisses her again when he sees no rejection in her eyes.

Abby's fingers knot into his hair as she deepens their kiss.

Their lips part when they deepen their kiss but just as abruptly he draws back from her, halfway across the room in the blink of an eye.

"I'm sorry" she says, "Babe, I'm really sorry" she says in mortification. She didn't want to push him again.

"N-No" he says, shaking his head, "it's not your fault, love" he says to her. "I-I don't want to lose control with you" he adds, "I'd never forgive myself" he says, sounding upset at the hypothetical possibility.

"You showed strength though" Abby praises him with a sweet smile. "That wasn't the case for me" she says in embarrassment.

"Don't be embarrassed, love" he says, "we just...have to be careful" he adds as Abby nods at this.

She pats the empty spot beside her as he made his way toward her and sank into the bed beside her, careful to exert control on himself.

He underestimated his urges, lust and love for Abby and he almost lost control of himself.

He can't let his stronger emotions and impulses get the better of him.

Not with her. Not with Abby.

It had been Emmett that had encouraged him to kiss Abby and test the limits of his control with her.

Edward had been embarrassed even talking with his brother about it since Emmett liked joking about virtually everything and in the beginning he had, citing things like: "It's about time, Eddie" and "so the day has come when our boy start to realize that he's a man then, ey Eddie?"

Part of the reason he and Rosalie hadn't returned until Abby left was because Rose was angry and for an angry Rose that meant Emmett had to calm her down and doing so usually meant sex.

The thought of it made Edward uncomfortable and sick and he always worked extra hard to keep himself from hearing his family's thoughts or even seeing the mental pictures of what they do behind closed doors.