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OK i will not put up with shit and also the side that will actually fight for other people now that's the other things about me that are actually not angry.   How do I set up an optimist I always think of finding an opportunity to be happy Andrews forest even maybe even become famous I don't know why I said that but that's beside the point I am who I am. To me I think that being human is also to be a happy person not funny happy like the kid that I went after him as a toddler but just just trying to be in a good mood and I'll be in a good mood to. If you scratch your back you're not gonna get it for me if you scratch my back I'll scratch yours as how it goes. I'm very decent human being I've been taught to be very caring and very positive of other people even though I my parents had a funny way of showing at five sticking me in daycare until I was nine years old or putting me in the program when I was 21. That was a funny way of showing it and I was a funny fucker. I know I still talk to my mom on the phone I do not Trash Talk her very much I like my father I think he had other plans and wanted me and daycare for those other plans wink wink. And I don't like that pushing a kid aside for your own selfish needs is not what I think it's good and saying it's for social skills is not good but that's beside the point I am social skills they just were him because I didn't want to deal with fitting in and being like everyone else that's what I thought was a front to me and a horrific thought. As being like Britney Spears and that I don't mind being a little bit famous being a well-known being who I am or being who I am but it only got the score I'd rather be hated by everyone instead of being loved for someone who I am not. I think that is the leader of Nirvana who said that and I believe in that you should be hating for who you are used to being loud for someone you're not. That's just basically why I am accommodation because I'm just a human being that wants to live a decent life and wants to be human but society has other plans they want you to conform they want you to fit in and stuff in there they say it's always social skills it's not when I went to the group home I found out what real social skills are what real social skills are in real life is as kind decent human beings. It's not being perfect by Britney Spears it's not being skinny it's not being anything it's being yourself who you are what you're supposed to be in life taking responsibility for your actions taking responsibility for chores learning the value of a dollar basic things in life that's why social skills are not torturing a child and no being somebody that they're not I believe that he should be who you are in the first place I was not taught to be who I was in the first place because I was forced at 13 to fit in and I have mentioned the F word to my mother many times that I don't want to fit in Atlanta with me and undesirable therapy sessions that I didn't want in the first place I just wanted to have fun and deal with life as it is I didn't wanna have to put up with a therapist or anything else it was going to hinder my life because I said the F word to my mother so many times she said I think you need help when you need to fill in any stuff and I didn't believe in that you're as I said it was when I was 17 when I really decide to block the system fuck the system meaning go against it and be who I am. My father as when I was 17 gave me a poetry book. For being who I am in the 1st Pl., be gutsy enough to be who I am.   There she was the turning over this with me becoming a woman issues may becoming a grown up to be who I am to the shed the horrid system of everything else to be who I am that's how I became a woman by stretching an expanding my ears and then she was graduating the tattoos and piercings I became a woman to me is kind of like a bar mitzvah it's the way it is if you become you have to have a ritual to be who you are who you are supposed to be you're not supposed to be a big and a cookie cutter. I don't even believe in cookie cutters I said disclose to one of my workers today that I learned when I was a kid that I nearly ended up in the graveyard because of bullying that's why I'm so hard on people. Because I don't like half the suit that they do to other people like bullying and calling them to your world or calling them names I don't like that. I think the English language is supposed to be easy it's not easy with all these derogatory words. You got the FAG word for guys who and other stuff I don't like this crap.   These nicknames and stuff at the end the derogatory words like what I spelled out hasta and because this is not how you are going to live your life.   To be miserable is one thing but make other people miserable because of your gross self-esteem I'm calling them as I said the word for guys used to other guys in a derogatory sense and also other mean names I don't find it very necessary and it's gotten to the point where I want to learn other languages that I don't have to deal with these words like a R world or f*g Or anything else for that matter I just want to live a simple decent life.    I don't believe that you should treat someone like a part of a crab because there are nothing more than a little different or unique I don't like that. And this is basically my intellectual property is that you should treat other people the way you wanna be treated if you want to be called derogatory name then go ahead and call someone else and oratory name I'll bet you to the one you want to get it back.  Can you tell us the way you should be treated hey Siri how is the way they want to be treated it and that's basically it I treat people with kindness respect and decency but as soon as they flip the script and sorry to be a pain in the butt and a bully or a jack ass I decide that I'm going to not have anything to do with them that's basically the way it is. Treat others the way you want to be treated and then you might get somewhere I have been called all kinds of derogatory names because of my PTSD like spaz out and the R word.  Something I wouldn't even wish on my own damn enemies I think it's important that we cut the names out and cut the beating  up out.   There's a place for violence and that is called video games I song hi Siri you're so as long as it's not a real person that I am directing my anger towards except a video game character all the better because then I can use that character to be the enemy in the game that's just simple that's what I should be use your anger for video games is your anger for decent stuff don't if you have to be aggressive go on a video game and win a fight on a video game or shoot something up on a video game but don't shoot up or beat up anyone that's real. I don't believe in beating up people who are real I've done that too many times in my life and my mom decided to give me a actual PlayStation two to get my anger out that was when I was in grade school high school. Because of people were getting through to me. I enjoyed that PlayStation 2 very much so I had so many games. But I got to be a pain in the ass for my mother because I would play the game more than anything else I guess I had a lot of temper and me and a lot of vim and vinegar that means piss and vinegar meaning I was a very spunky person that's all it was I played that PlayStation two until it died. I need died of natural causes I'll let you know that it was very well used because I was so full of vim and vinegar.     And I still am a gamer because I'm still full of piss and vinegar that's just basically and I play gods of Rome I play Mortal Kombat media mops and stuff but I do not do beating up audio people anymore unless they actually deserve it and even at that I don't want to do it my peace loving human being now because my mother gave me that PlayStation 2 as an outlet for my anger did it become an addiction yes it did but it wasn't a healthy reduction then some other and stupid stuff that my people my age were doing like drugs alcohol Sex other bullshit.   Partying was the worst for me I didn't like partying so that was another no-no for me I didn't like it because I was afraid I would get into a fight get violated or get hurt or even worse get killed. That was a no-no for me with parties because I watch too much forensic files trolls and I was like OK I'm not gonna go to another party as long as I live because I don't believe in getting in a compromising situation where you can actually get killed. That's why I'm an angry beaver. But I'm very peace loving and I do believe and enjoy and mindfulness and try to help myself be better. But I'm still an angry beaver that's just the way I am I always had an angry streak but do I turn it towards myself or other people anymore no I don't I just go on gods of Rome and let her rap I might rant I might run to a worker that will be about the end of it I don't go to punch someone if I feel I need to punch someone I get the hell out of the stinking room that's just basically it and then play guitar or do something that's halfway decent with my anger. The Insane Clown Posse more or less says that you have to use your anger in a positive note or you're just gonna be a lowlife. And that's why it is there's a lot of haters out there and a lot of bad people because of they don't use or anger in a proper terminology they use in criminal acts and other horrible things and I don't believe in that I grew up long time ago when I got the PlayStation to RSI and I was not gonna suck another human being that was in front of me flesh and blood I was going to just go after the game itself and deal with it that way but I was still wanna know bowl crap no sugarcoating person I still am no sugarcoating. I still remember that PS2 and some of the games I got or samurai warriors tack and WWE and also Dynasty Warriors as well as other martial art related games those are the games I listen played a lot I love the characters love being them up even more creating some characters on WWE was pretty fun to I was a very creative person as a kid still I'm creative and that's just basically the end of it and I'm a very responsible human being like right now I'm taking in something to go to the dishwasher. As I'm talking about my life in a more positive note.  Once I got that PlayStation to I stopped going to therapy very simple's I had it up dealing with my emotions more easily and then it up dealing with things more constructively I would try to draw the characters or duplicate the characters on the game to the paper if they were my favourite characters that words and I was able to create characters as well and that got me interested in IT stuff now I actually create I have created a social media sorry using what is it called the mighty networks to create a space for other people like me that's how I got interested in that was to video games and also through MySpace I was very fascinated with Facebook how do you create something like that something so cool. You have to find a way to be creative I use my anger to make it my space like side or a space he lakeside aura Facebook like site I make my anger known by my art and through my tattoos sometimes by showing the semicolon for suicide prevention I'm very angry with the fact that little kids do this to them selves. And that's why I am mostly an angry beaver show me sadness going on. The sadness is what drives my anger and it's not sadness directed to myself because I'm a proud person I am and who I am and I don't take anymore but I am very sad that there are other kids that have to fit and have to not create or are stymied by their parents or are bullied to the point where they are mentally L or dead either way I can't stand this so that's why I get angry at the world and I end up playing gods of Rome instead or paint pick up a paintbrush or pick up my iPad or something instead of lashing out at another human being that's just the way it is as I said I have decided to make a year-long project to create a 12 part monthly yearbook of my artwork instead of feeling sorry for myself I also believe in not dating sites that is a sign of desperation for me and a sad song because you can actually end up in very compromising situations and I have been in compromising situations with dating sites or dating site like social media I just don't bother with it I am a friend oriented person not a romantic oriented person except towards myself. People are wondering why are you being celibate why are you being all romantic or other stuff that's just the way it is why is someone with a broken spine can't walk it's just the way nature is so that's the end of it I am not romantically involved with any other people I'm not romantically involved with men or women I tried that shit just like someone with a broken spine trying to walk and then a dub not walking for the rest of your life that's just the way things go I don't believe that you have to make miracles for getting to compromising situations because someone ask you a stupid question to me I say you guys stupid you ask a stupid question you get a stupid question back that's just basically it and I sometimes say this is in school I don't have to answer your stupid questions. And if they persist I block them or go somewhere else depending on what it is if it's on the iPad or the phone I block if it's in person I tell him to buzz off. And I told one person to buzz off because he was asking too many questions too many times and I said listen this is not elementary school or high school this is real life don't ask these stupid questions to me because you're going to get a really stupid question back. And I was a sign that I didn't like this idea that I was being asked questions and I don't like people asking me personal questions online unless I'm going on an interview I'm doing my first interview so that's gonna be the first time I'll allow someone to ask me personal questions about my orientation that being said I don't understand that if I'm just IMing someone on WhatsApp and someone I don't ask oh I don't answer are you female male are you virgin are you this music I don't answer those questions those are too personal but if I'm in an interview with a lesser YouTube or less I'm at the virtually interview on zoom I can I'll be an open book what if you're gonna ask me stupid questions on Facebook like what size are your boobs or what size is your butt or something that will make me very uncomfortable I will say GuessWhat screw you you're blah. Because that's just the way it is and I'll say I'll call the police for your harassing questions an empty threat that I use very often when someone asked me the size of my privates be at my boobs or my butt I don't like talking about anatomy when I'm trying to be friends with someone obviously they have something in mind that is not very wholesome all very family friendly and that just thinks me up so badly.    When I make a social media site I always saying no nudity no anatomy talk no nothing it's a G rated side it's either follow the theme of the story in this case with scary friends it's Creepypasta art or you can go home you can drop post a selfie you can post your writings you can post anything else but as soon as it erotic rise I will bump you off my site that's just the way it is because I'll and I'll say hey I'm gonna call the police get the fuck off my side just like I would change the Facebook get the fuck out my Facebook if you show me that again I don't need to see that because nobody needs to see those things. That's another reason why I am a meanie because people don't get it that you're not supposed to show certain things that are not meant to be seen by your grandmother there's a lot of people that have ruined the Internet and I call him out on it right away and I've never been scammed but I have been showing inappropriate pictures or I have seen inappropriate profile pictures and I'm like what the hell is wrong with that person and then I comment and say the doctor should really should be seeing that instead of the rest of the world and if I see it again I'll call the police that's what I will literally comment.  The same thing with girls and around lady lumps I don't think they should be seen in Las Vegas on a designated sorry if it's on my space space day or whatever else no I don't want to see but I don't want to see anything that has anything of a body part because I'll just say what I said the doctor she will be seeing that not the rest of the world and I'll call the police or report you if I see it again. That's just the way I am so keep it in your pants  keep them in your shirt and you're happy.   For things that are not meant for grandmother I want to go on a dog sound size adult fancy that's about the size of it and that's where I put my risqué stuff that's it and I'm not doing it for anyone else because I enjoy taking pictures of my beautiful farm I am very body positive very face positive very hair positive and very decent person I don't believe that you should be skinny skinny skinny I think you want to show it off your own certain sites if they're like only fans showing off low off that money and if you're on Facebook keep it closed. That's why I'm so mean to people and why I block some friend request when I don't trust the person. And I don't really trust very many people on the Internet if they show me a picture of the Cuhara whatever I just saw that's the end of the friendship and it wasn't really a friendship to begin with so that's why I say no random ads no random anything I make up another Facebook account and say that I'm in a relationship with that other account to scare off other people. That's just what I do to protect myself I said I have a boyfriend so why am single or on a romantic I say I'm in a relationship I'm taken please leave me alone. Because that would keep those unsavory's away from your Facebook and away from your space Harry and away from your Twitter if you say you're taken. I learned that from a friend in high school so you have a boyfriend or girlfriend and then they'll back off. That's what I do I've always done that since I've been on my space for the first time and now I do that all the time since I've been on Facebook that's the one thing I am not but I have to say that I am I don't like lying on the Internet but when it comes to my safety I have to lie about my relationship status and just go about my life that's just the way it is and I'm going to tell you most people respect what I have to say on the relationship status some people don't and they ask questions and I tell him the buzzer off.
The real fact is I am auto romantic auto sexual that's who I am and that's becoming a more common thing as I read on the Internet do you think I shouldn't believe everything that's on the Internet but when it comes to things like this it's true it's on the risers many people add like me and Gaillard ingress and other people that I've dealt with just deal with them selves and that's it they don't deal with people external people except as friends.  And why is it going on the rise it's maybe because it were evolving or maybe it's just because people are idiots and don't understand half of this planet who have a brain. I believe that there's this thing called the invisible brain theory burns like OK Maya my permanent instability or my orientation as a parent what is your brain imaginary that's the question I always ask people when they act a fool I say mine is my personality my orientation and disability little bit of invisible but then again I think your brain is more imaginary than my orientation or my disability that's basically what I say. And I stick by that theory that some people don't use their brains or don't hack don't know they have any brains until they're in the autopsy unfortunate but that's the case of the circumstance wasn't you dealing with normal people. I don't find there's very much redeeming with normal people or "society that they don't have brains until they're reading an MRI CAT scan or an autopsy that's when they show their brains out they are brainless wanna consider actions mean spirit horrible people. That's why I'm so angry half the time because he's invisible brains. All the nonexistent brains until you either die and go to autopsy or you go to the hospital and get a scan done start showing it in other forms people. And I've dealt with this with bad drivers and bad people and with racist people like where is your brain.    
And I sometimes ask people who show me pictures of their a stupid anatomy other than their brain or face that oh I have a brain do you and other stuff you have a brain here that's what I say when people act a fool do you even have a brain because there's some people are going to university and I don't deserve to be in university I find that really honked my horn at these grants go to people that are mean spirited horrible people while there's people like me Who are exceptionally gifted and very brilliant and cannot afford university and they end up on disability and the mean-spirited people going to university I have a cousin who won in the criminal law she ended up stealing from my grandmother real smart and I caught wind of it. Half the subjects make me wanna puke because people that don't have disabilities are people that don't have vision heart are very vomit inducing. I go chicken hunting every time I leave the house and go chicken hunting every time I go somewhere because you never know when you want to find a dumb ass I'd rather deal with people who have a good heart or have disabilities either way they show that they have a brain I don't deal with university students or college students because they think their shit doesn't smell. Anything that they're in higher studies than me if they think that they're smarter than the average person by and see other way around on this one is in the average person there or not they just happen to be educated idiots here they're most likely going to university to get a good high-paying job and they're not there to get knowledge. I remember my name that I gave myself Sufi which is like the Sufism which means you have to gather as much knowledge as possible and I cannot do that because these rich little farts are going around hogging all the universities.   I am also a mystic I believe in spirituality just like in Sufism knowledge is more for decent people people who want it people will get it people will pull out of the stars are poor or rich if you seek just pure knowledge and university and not a high-paying job there and you have my respect but if you're not looking for knowledge higher knowledge get the hell out of my side because I believe in Sufism that's what my name is Sufi that's my spiritual name Sufi and that's what was given to me in a dream Sufi me the collector of knowledge here and will I go to university no because there's too many idiots that are being idiots but I will go to a tattoo parlour and go for an apprenticeship and seek knowledge through other ways. Because I find I find that I if I go in junior college or I go to an apprenticeship to be a tattoo artist I'm most likely going to succeed more in life and if I go in the university and fail so icy higher knowledge from other things like box TV movies real good proper knowledge. I'm a very theory based  person.   That means I'm knowledge base unlike my father who is largest knowledge based logic doesn't always answer everything iPhone so I lied I watch ghost adventures I watch the discovery channel I watch the Travel Channel I watch Netflix and I watch the ass in there and if it's decent enough for an adult and kid at the same time I wouldn't watch something like family guy that's just entertainment I want knowledge with my entertainment so I go onto YouTube and I go and I simply space Mr. ball and another and stuff like that that's what I like the only silly stuff I watch is siren head movies on YouTube and I don't mind siren head he's not a silly son of a bitch so that's what ideas I graph I take something I grasp it I keep it knowledge wise. I've always been a knowledge seeker when I was a kid that bugged the stuffing out of my parents are just like you are obsessed you are eccentric no I'm not I'm gonna's looking for good information good knowledge good time decent life. I'm not trying to party I'm not trying to do drugs or alcohol I'm getting drunk or high off knowledge. And that infuriated my mother when I was 13 she hated that at the time and I was a knowledge seeker and a spiritual person not a Catholic not skinny or well I was skinny because I was around but not popular or getting along with kids that I was just seeking knowledge and spirituality in other forms she didn't like that one bit at the time we bought heads and I told her how far and she never did it again. And I also told her again when I was at the therapist and she was to leave me alone if she has nothing nice to say so she has kept her tongue in balance she either Asunción nice tattoo nice piercing or she doesn't say anything at all. She's very excepting nowadays because I confronted her during therapy one time and I said I'm not gonna fit in I don't care about the bullies Northern existence not to I care about their lives when I care about is my friends lives and my life and the lives of people who are weaker than me. I don't believe in people who bully people I don't Bow down to them.    And I remember the therapist saying what is your plastic surgery because your ears are going to get ripped and a certain yellow thing in my ears got ripped guess what I'm not getting any plastic surgery on my left ear that's just the way it is and it's not a cosmetic issue it's just me having three robes and a dangling part of skin there's going to be here first one day so I could have earrings in my ears again and they will not be gauged or expanders because I've learned my lesson on that but do I pierce yes do I tattoo yes I care about the peanut gallery know and that's just basically what I'm trying to say. I'm still a knowledge seeking tattoo pierced little nut case that I was 20 years ago and that's basically what it is going to be for the rest of my life my mother has learned to except it she has learned to except everything that I have done except if it was hateful. She had learned from that therapy session that I was not going to deal with bullshit about feeling in a box and fitting in with society society have to fit in with me or get used to me or I leave and go to another country that will except me and that's what I said and I didn't leave another country and seek another citizenship in another country but I have sad deal with it or leave. That is what I said and that's what I say you don't like the way my hair is cut I give you the finger you don't like my three earlobes alarm at you because you're too you're a two earloped freak.     What is my freaking shoes people that try to CNN Friday and those cookie cutters those every people that want to be whatever the hell is normal what is normal anyway this is a philosophical memoir so what is normal it is being unusual it's being who you were supposed to be in the first place in this case my normal is to be pierced and tattoo and knowledge seeking most spiritually and through logic as well.   I have graduated with honours from high school I should've been given a grant but I didn't because the kids were too mean and so all the teachers but I worked my heart out and I learned my good grades I should've been able to have gone to university or college high or college but that's not the case that's not in the stars so that's beside the point God has another plan for me or the creator has another plan for me so that's beside the point. And I think his plan is for me that I advocate for people that are weaker than me or and be a tattoo artist in an author that's why I was put on this planet. As Eminem put it in a song the real Slim Shady I've been sent here to piss you off.   And I have been doing my job with that and I don't really care decent kind human being if I piss someone off well I've been sent to piss that person off that's just how fate goes. You either I'm a very acquired taste you either like me or you don't and if you don't like me you just stay away from me if you don't like my peoples and I belong to stay away from me as an races if you don't like my religion Pagon Wiccan shamanism and get the hell out of my sight, if you hate Muslim people you're going to get a punch in the face that's simple because everyone has a right to be treated with respect as I said and that's why I am a very acquired taste because either people like me standing up for people or other people don't like the way I act and call me stupid names. And I am fighting to stop that that is my struggle that is my little battle that is why I'm going on to a actual interview if it happens. But I am very optimistic that I'll be going to the interview on zoom. So that being said when I see him on zoom and I am going to be on the interview I'm gonna see what I'm saying out is that I'm an acquired taste either you like what I have to do in life are you despises my God and you don't have to like me and I'm not meant to be your best friend if you want to be hateful.