A long story

Chapter 8

Natasha's POV

I wake up, look at my room and sigh. Those nightmares don't want to stop. How can I do ? Plus I don't want to bother Steve. What would say Sharon if she finds out her boyfriend sleeps with another girl every night ?

"Hey"

"Hey, sleep well ?"

"Yeah" I answered coldly. I need to stop this situation before I get too attached. If I stop it right now, I may be able to push away my feelings. "I'm gonna take a shower" I could see the look on his face, he was hurt and it killed me to see him like this but I must do it.

I went in the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like shit. My face was really pale and I got two big undereye bags. I splashed some water over my face, took a shower and got dressed. When I came back in the room, Steve already left. I sighed in relief and went to the training room. I punched with all my strength in the bag for at least an hour. After that, I went in my room and took another shower before going in the kitchen. There, I found Steve, eating an apple. I decided it was the moment to talk to him.

"Hey" he said with a small smile that made me blush. Focus Nat !

"Hey I wanted to talk to you about something"

"Sure what is it ?"

"Thank you for helping me with my nightmares but they're gone so you can sleep alone again and Sharon won't be mad."

"Are you sure ? Nat, I know they didn't stop."

"Steve, please stop. I don't need your pity."

But I need you.

"No but you need my help"

Of course I need your help.

"Why do you think I need your help ? I don't need anyone, I never did, I never will."

I'm so scared Steve, please help me.

"Nat, please..."

Don't make it harder than it already is, please.

"No, as I said you can sleep in your room again. Now if you will excuse me, I have to find Wanda."

I stormed out of the kitchen and ran as fast as I could in my room. I locked myself in the bathroom and cried for a long time.

"Nat ? Natasha ? NATASHA ROMANOFF WILL YOU OPEN THE DOOR FOR GOD'S SAKE ?!" I recognized Wanda's voice and slowly opened the door. She let out a gasp when she saw me and hugged me.

"I ruin everything. I'm so sorry." I cried in her arms.

"What happened ?"

I told her about the fight with without telling her about the nightmares because I didn't want to worry her.

"I don't understand. Why don't you want to talk to him anymore ?"

"Because he is with Sharon and I can't do this to her"

"Since when do you like her ?"

"It's not like that it's just that I could never do this to anybody. How would you react if you found out your boyfriend slept with his best friends for a few nights ?"

"Not good but it's not the same with you, Steve loves you"

"As a friend Wanda, he loves and sees me as a friend, just like how I should do with him"

"You know you're stubborn, right ?"

"Love you too Maximoff"

"Me too Romanoff, now what do you want to do for the rest of the day ?"

"I don't know, what do you have in mind ?"

"How about shopping ? So that you can clear your mind from all that stuff and leave this place."

"Great idea"

We left and went shopping for at least two hours then stopped and ate at a restaurant. I got about ten calls from Steve but ignored them all. I really couldn't deal with this right now.

We finished eating then got back to the QG, it was almost eight o'clock. We went to our rooms separately and I thanked her for today.

I honestly don't know what I would do without my little Scarlet Witch.

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Steve's POV

I don't understand what happened. I thought everything was going good between us but apparently not. I didn't quite understand why she talked about Sharon. Does she think we're together ? Why on earth would she think that ? I love her ! Her, Natasha Romanoff, not Sharon, I never loved Sharon. It was just a kiss, once, and I didn't like it.

I didn't sleep at night. All I thought about her, her smile, her eyes, her hair, her lips. I wanted to be with her, I needed her to sleep good and to feel good. She needed me too. What if she had another nightmare ? What if it was worse than the last ?

I suddenly heard screaming and it took all of me to not go and check her.

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Natasha's POV

The nightmare of this night was horrible.

I watched myself fell of that cliff again and again until my body changed and I became Yelena. She looked at me right in the eyes before jumping. I tried to go and catch her but it was like I was blocked. Then she came back and transformed into Wanda. She looked at me hurt then jumped too.

I screamed a bit then put my hand on my mouth to make me stop. I waited for Steve to come but he never did. I spent the rest of the night crying in my bed.