it's all ur fault

23

i remember our first kiss
it was in a stairwell at school
the one near the boys locker room

i remember being so so nervous

when you had snapchatted me
asking me to meet you there

i was literally only going there to hit your juul

but i knew that you were gonna kiss me
because you were corny
and made it so so obvious how you felt

so of course i met you in there

we talked a little bit
and you pulled out the juul

asking me if i wanted to do a shotgun kiss

i remember playing dumb
acting like you were crazy
bc i've never kissed anyone before

but then you just went in for it
and all those nerves that i felt
they me left the second that your lips met mine

i felt so safe
i felt so on top of the world
that feeling was so magical

i remember you pulled away after a few seconds
i remember the way you
looked so deeply into my eyes
and the way we both giggled
how i immediately wanted more

this time i went in for it

i felt one of your hands
wrap around my waist
pulling me closer to you
your other hand gently tugging my hair

those moments

i miss it so much.
i miss you so much.

the feeling of our lips
melting together so perfectly

i wanted you all to myself

and having you all to myself
was one of the greatest things i've ever felt.

i miss you so much.
i'm so sorry that i messed up.