it's all ur fault

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when you hit me
i was honestly so fucking scared

i remember seeing the look on your face
only for just a split second
i saw your fist coming towards me
i tried to block it but it was too late

everything went black for a second or two
and then i seen stars
i heard the whole lunchroom either gasp
or just stop talking

i brought my hand to my face
holding where i was struck
almost immediately started crying
but i held that in

as i turn around and balance myself
after falling a few steps back

this is when my fight or flight kicks in

it felt like a fucking nightmare.
i felt so angry
so heartbroken
and sad honestly

so i snapped
like i always do

i ask him
do you really wanna fucking punch me
i yell at him
put your hands on me again

impulse in me
kicked in again
so i try to swing back at him
but a split second later he punches me again
and i'm on the ground

a teacher comes and breaks it up

i'm getting off of the floor
almost in tears

i don't even remember this part
but i started yelling
and i told him

you're a fucking asshole bro
fuck you
fuck everything you fucking did

and then i walked to the office

those were the last words i've ever said to you
said in front of the whole lunch room

everyone asking me "are you okay? are you okay?"
as i'm on my way to the office

no i really wasn't okay