Loving You the Second Time Around

Foreword

"You never tried to understand me! I'm the only one in this relationship who is trying to work things out! I am so tired with this! All I just want is for you to stay with me! Isn't that too hard?"

I shouted at her. I'm too tired and sick with all the quarrels that we have at the moment. I know that quarrels and misunderstandings are just normal when you are in relationships. But this... this is just too much!

Yes, I do love her, but I am  getting tired of understanding her. I am not a saint, and I get tired too.

I do everything for her as long as I can to make her happy, to make her feel that I am always here for her. To support her and to give everything that I could.

I don't want her to leave because I love her so much and I don't know what to do if I loose her. That's how much I lover,

...but I guess, loving someone too much could also cause too much pain. Too much love could hurt us more.

"What?! I cannot believe you! I cannot believe that I am hearing those things coming from you! I gave almost my everything and now I am the one who did nothing in thids goddamn relationship?! Are you kidding me? Look, if you won't and can't support me from all the things that I want to do, then so be it! I thought you love me and that you will understand me. This is my dream! This is the dream of my life and you can't give me your full support?! I gave up everything for you, but I'm sorry... not this!"

I walked away from him. Leaving him behind.

I tried to wipe my tears away, but it's just useless as another tear runs through my cheeks.

I love him... I really do... so damn much. To the point that I chose him over my family. But this is just too much! This has been my dream ever since. This is my dream for me and for the both of us.

We passionately loved each other so much. We were once so happy, inseparable, and young. But as the days went by and as we mature, some things had changed a bit.

The young and innocent love that we used to have slowly fell apart.

As days went by, we had realized that when it comes to love, it ain't just about being in love with each other.

It's about how you two face every struggle and challenges in your relationship together.

It's about how you understand and support each other.

It's about how you trust one another..

After all those years that I had never saw you, nor a glimpse, you still haven't changed.

You are still the person whom I loved years ago.

You can still make my heart flatter just by seeing you smile.

And after all those year that went by, even though you hurt me years ago, I still can't help my self.

Tell me, am I too stupid for Loving You the Second Time Around?

A/N: Currently editing and revising the story. I made this when I was still a first year college student and this had been in my drafts over the years. So hi! I'm back!!!!