Loving You the Second Time Around

CHAPTER 16

"Don't lie, don't cheat, and don't make promises you can't keep."

JUNMYEON'S POV

I looked outside the window thinking how I would start the conversation with her.

After few days, I felt myself coming back. I felt like I needed to correct everything. I felt like I need to stop being so reckless.

I took a sip from my coffee as I waited for her arrival here at a coffee shop. Every now and then, I can't stop tapping my fingers on the wooden table because of nervousness.

"Suho."

I swifted my gaze to the owner of  the voice and smiled at her.

I needed to finally decide and make a move. I don't want to hurt her anymore 'cause that's the least thing I could do for her, after all the things she did for me to be relieved from all the pain of the past.

"Chorong."

A smile formed in her beautiful face as tears started to escape from her eyes.

She sat down and grabbed my hand. She held it and kissed it.

"I missed you baby." she said. I felt guilty seeing her like this, but just like what I've said earlier, I needed to decide.

"I missed you too Chorong... and I'm sorry if I hurt you intentionally. It was not really my intention. I was just too emotional and messed up with what's happenings in my life right now." I said as I cupped her face.

"I am here to see you and to tell you that—"

"It's alright baby! I understand you... you don't haven't to explain anything. Please, let's start again? Hmm... let's forget what happened these past few days. I know that you're just as confused as I am. But we'll make this through, I know we can make it baby. Also, we are getting married very soon, righ-—."

I lowered my head. I know I will hurt her more because of this, but it's the right to do.

"Look Chorong... listen to me. I loved you. I sincerely loved you, and I never pretended it. You made me feel happy and in love again. You made me feel that I am being appreciated again, and God knows how happy I am that I met you. How happy I am that a Park Chorong came into my life." I tried to hush her down as I wiped her tears away.

"Suho... w-what are you t-trying to say?" Chorong said with wide eyes as her gripped tightened in my hand.

I held both of her hands to calm her, and tried to explain everything to her.

"Chorong, I never regretted loving you... it's just that... I am not the right one for you. We met each other because of a reason, but I couldn't say that it was because we are destined for each other. Maybe there's another reason. I know I promised you that I will marry you, in front of many people, but to tell you the truth... I was just got pressured by your Dad. I was still doubted myself at that time whether I am truly worthy of you. Am I the right one for you? But because of your late father's wish, I set aside those doubts and questions that I had. I took all the courage that I have and asked you for a marriage."