Third Time's The Charm

Chapter 23

"Mamma, will I get cupcakes for my birthday too?" asked Ezra as I tucked him into bed.

"Yes, tesoro. Cupcakes and presents, and balloons. So many things," I smiled, running my fingers through his hair. He smiled, his eyelids growing heavier as he yawned.

"Is there anyone you would like to invite?" asked Maya, kneeling beside the boy's bed.

"I don't know. Um Steven, Abby, Trevor, Luis, Adelaida..." he trailed off, falling asleep. Both Maya and I placed a gentle kiss on his forehead, wishing him goodnight before turning on his nightlight and making our way into our bedroom. The blonde brushed her teeth as I changed into my pajamas and brought a glass of water in for the both of us.

"Hey," I said, finally making my way into bed after brushing my teeth and washing my face. Maya was preoccupied going over some documents on her laptop. I loved how dedicated she was to everything she did but hated the fact that her work would follow her everywhere, even the bedroom.

"Hi," Maya chuckled as she looked over at me. I reached for the laptop, shutting it and placing it on my bedside table. Maya watched me intently, completely confused at my actions.

"I wasn't finished," she added. I gave her a smirk, leaning over and placing a long and gentle kiss on her lips. Maya pulled me closer and deepened the kiss, holding me tighter anytime she felt me slightly pull away. We continued like this for a few minutes, the room becoming more heated as the seconds ticked by.

"Fuck me," sighed Maya as I trailed my lips down her neck, biting her slightly.

"I plan on it," I smiled, pulling her shirt over her head. I looked down at her in awe, she was perfect. The most beautiful being I had ever laid eyes on. I continued my way down her chest, taking her now erect nipple between my lips. I sucked gently, watching as Maya's body begged for more. I needed to carry this out, to feel something other than the godforsaken grief that had consumed my life the past few months. This day in particular had been extra difficult. I should have been holding my little girl today. I should have looked into her eyes for the first time as I welcomed her into the world, but I couldn't. Maya lifted one of her legs, pressing her thigh into my center as I let out a breathy moan. She flipped us over, mirroring every kiss and every caress I had placed on her body. She placed her hands under my tank top, bringing it up as her hands ran over my sides. The blonde worked her way down my abdomen, placing gentle kisses over every piece of exposed skin. I felt my eyes tear up at one particular kiss, the sensation almost the same as the day I had found out we lost Lucia. Maya continued on her way, stopping as she reached the top of my panties. She smiled up at me with her lust filled eyes. Her expression changed when our eyes met, her smile turning into a face full of concern.

"Baby, you're crying. What's going on?" she asked, quickly coming back up and laying by my side. I brought my hand up to my face, noticing the tears that had spilled for the first time.

"Do you not want this? Did I do something to make you uncomfortable?" she asked, "talk to me, please."

"I-I don't know. It wasn't you. You were perfect. You are always perfect and so loving and careful," I sighed.

"Then?" she said.

"It just doesn't feel right," I sighed as a few more tears ran down my face. Maya pondered for a bit. Looking over at the closet before speaking up.

"We can spice it up a bit, but there's no need to cry about it baby," she laughed, wiping away a stray tear as I lightly chuckled.

"I mean life in general, bambina. Don't get me wrong. I love what you and I have and what we have with Ezra but it doesn't feel complete, and no matter how hard I try I can't get rid of the emptiness I feel," I explained as I continued to cry.