Serendipity [Sunsun Fanfiction]

Buried Feelings

Kim Sunoo's POV

Talking to Jake was almost like speaking to someone unreal. It was as if he predicted all of my questions as he had just the right words to answer them.

And his words were just the things I needed to hear.

"Give him a chance before it's too late."

It's not like I have never spoken to Jake about Hoon, I just really avoided it these days.

"What do you mean?" His words caught my attention.

Too late? He just came back, right? How come everything feels like it's ending all over again when in fact we haven't even started again?

"Look, Sunoo. If you feel like you don't like him anymore then just push him away," he shrugged as if it was so easy to do.

"Why?" He asked as he intently looked at me.

I didn't get to speak. My head was too busy finding the right reasons to push him away, but it looks like it can't. I can't.

"Well, if you do still like him, then go and take the risk, Sun." He continued.

"Time isn't always on our hands," he sadly said. "Look at me," he smiled, tears pooling in his eyes.

"If I wasn't saved, you could've lost your favorite hyung." He said, forcing his voice out as he tried stopping his tears.

"Hyung...,"I held his arm and looked at him.

I hate it when people say that. The thought of losing someone I love pains me to the core, especially when I couldn't do anything.

It reminded me of my sister.

"You know, Sunghoon is a very nice man. Very caring, very thoughtful. Basically the perfect man anyone can have," he wiped his tears and met my eyes.

"And when I tell you, he was the first person that flashed before my eyes when my car crashed." His voice was small, trying to stop his loudest cries.

"I loved him very much, Sunoo. Too much, that I realized that loving him was wrong." He whispered, his tears continued flowing.

What?

I felt my tears flow down my cheeks as I couldn't take anyone cry in front of me. I can feel how his chest hurts at the moment, and it's killing me.

"I was so scared." He sadly laughed as he used the hospital blanket to wipe his tears. "Imagine missing your chance to tell that someone you love them. Just imagine that pain, Sunoo. Imagine losing your life without taking any risks. Isn't it...sad?"

"Hyung..."

"That's why you should take advantage of your time. It isn't always on our side. Just freely love if that's how you feel. You may be unsure right now, but when you're with the right person, you'd be sure. More sure than anything." He said again, finally recovering from his tears.

Fuck. Jake likes Sunghoon? No, scratch that, he loves Hoon.

"But...don't get me wrong, Sunoo. I loved Hoon, I do not anymore. Not in that sense." He pursed his lips. "Maybe my feelings were just a bit too strong back then, that my head had to bring him up at that moment."

"I am genuinely happy for the both of you, okay? So please don't feel sorry for me, it's the last thing I want you to feel." He assured me. "And besides, I like to see him happy, and you, too. That's the only thing I want."

"And if he is happy with you, then so be it. If it's not me, then so be it." He smiled again, this time, it didn't look sad at all. He was reassuring me.

"Hyung, I didn't know..." I cried at him.

"No one knew." He laughed, a genuine one.

I smiled at him when I felt the atmosphere lighten.

"Just don't worry, okay? You two are literally the one for each other as far as I can see." He sighed.

"Just make him happy, that's all I want him to be." He added before nodding at me.

Hyung's right. Time. I shouldn't waste it.