Serendipity [Sunsun Fanfiction]

Confrontation, Confirmation

Kim Sunoo's POV

"Where do you want to go next?" Hoon suddenly spoke, breaking the silence.

It is already far past noon and we just decided to chill here in my living room.

"What are you doing?" I asked, staring blankly at the television to avoid his eye contact.

"What do you mean?" His voice sounded genuine. He sounded hurt.

"I- Well-"

"If you are still thinking about that kiss—"

"I-I wasn't!" I felt my cheeks heat up from embarrassment.

Did I really pull him in? Did I actually think he was mom? Fuck.

"It's just that...you started bringing me out, treating me, being good to me." I reasoned, trying to find the right words to express what I am feeling.

It never occurred to me that we will ever have this kind of conversation. We never had the time to talk about what really is between us.

All I know is that I am happy. I feel full of his love.

"Look, Sun..." He stood up and sat beside me.

Then again, I reminisced how his lips softly pressed against mine. I guess I will not see this couch the same way ever again.

"I...I am leaving soon." He spoke, almost close to tears as he mentioned leaving.

My heart dropped. My body felt cold.

Is it happening all over again? Is he going to leave me again? Why did he come back, then? To play with me and set me aside again?

Fucking hell, I am so tired of being left behind.

"Sun, my mallows." I felt him bring his palm to cup my cheeks. He searched for my eyes until I finally looked at him.

"I wanted to spend my remaining days here with you. I- I wanted to court you again. I want you to be in my arms again." He spoke carelessly again.

"Please? Please." I took a deep breath and gently removed his hands from my face.

"Stop making me fall all over again if you are just going to leave me. Stop that. Just stop." Suddenly it was hard to breathe.

My throat tightened, imagining how he will leave me again. I tried to stop the tears that were threatening to fall but it was too late.

"Please don't cry, Sun. You know I hate to see you like this." He gently wiped my damp cheeks with his thumbs.

I met his eyes for the second time.

It was as if there are still words that were left unsaid. His eyes looks sad, no other emotions were apparent.

I inhaled as deeply as I could before standing up.

"If you want, you can leave now. You can just help yourself out the door, Hoon. You couldn't have just made it easier for the both of us and never showed up if we will end the same way as before." I sternly said before walking to my room, leaving him standing there.

I unconsciously slammed the door behind me before leaning against it. And finally for the first time in a while, my body couldn't handle it anymore. My tears suddenly flowed, my head thumped, my heart ached. Everything suddenly hurts.

First love is really something, 'no?

It makes you do things you never knew you would, it makes you feel things you never knew was possible to feel.

Fuck. Fuck feelings. Fuck love. Or was it really love?

I sat down just before the door until after a few minutes, soft knocks are heard.