SILENT (MV x CL)

18. BLOOD

I know guys I have no selfcontrol.
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"You are disgusting" Max said as Charles hurled into the toilet once again. At this point only a yellow slimy substance came out.

"Shut it." Charles said as he wiped his mouth with a towel again.

"Oh come on Charles, you should see yourself." Max said laughing a bit. This earned an angry look from Charles.

Max had moved to the edge of the bathtub. Sitting there as he waited until Charles was feeling better again.

"What did you even do to get this fucked up?" Max asked curiously.

"What do you mean? I feel perfectly fine." Charles said sarcastically. He swallowed away another lump in his throat.

He wobbly stood up. Max shot up trying to help him. Charles was managing so Max sat down again.

Charles leaned over the sink, opening the tap. He sipped some water. He let it go around in his mouth before spitting it out again. He did it again with toothpaste. The rinse of his mouth made him feel somewhat more clean.

"I was with Arthur and Lorenzo and kept loosing at this game." He said walking towards Max. He stood between Max's spread legs. Max's hand instantly shot around Charles' thighs.

"Don't play those games again." Max demanded and even though he agreed with the statement he felt weird about Max telling him what to do.

He growned and let his head fall back in his neck.

Max didn't seem to notice Charles' feeling. He tugged a bit at the black shorts Charles was wearing. Charles tapped away his hands.

"Don't." He mumbled. Max let his hands fall into his lap. Now he was the one to let out a displeased sound. Charles closed his eyes for a moment.

"Max..." he said as he opened his eyes again, looking into Max's. Max's eyes displayed all his emotions. Fear, love, lust, confusion and anger.

"You totally lost your shit towards Angela and you expect me to think that's all fine." Charles said now taking a step back. He didn't want to pick a fight over nothing, but this wasn't nothing right?

"The stupid door lady? Fuck Charles! You could have died up here!" Max said a bit stronger than he wanted to.

"Don't be so dramatic Max! I've just drank too much. You scared her to death." He said back equally angry now.

"Well you ignored me! You knew I was coming over and you decided to drink more anyway!" Max was now shouting. Charles stayed silent.

"You're selfish." Max said in a low voice as he looked coldly into Charles eyes.

Charles eyes were tearing up in anger. He could feel a single tear travelling down his right cheek.

"Maybe this was a mistake." He said and then turned around and walked back to the bed.

"How could you say that?" Max stood up. He walked to Charles. "How the fuck could you say that?" He repeated as Charles did not answer.

Charles was making the bed ignoring Max's question.

"FUCK! LOOK AT ME!" Max yelled desperately while he turned Charles around with force, keeping a firm grasp around his arm. Charles' face was wet from tears.

"I gave all of me to you. I gave everything I believed was true about me up for you. I don't even know who I am anymore because of you. I am doubting every second of the day. And you just say this is a mistake." Max couldn't hold back his tears anymore either. Charles wasn't able to bring out a single word. Max was bruising his upper arm with his grip.