Questions about Life

Chapter 16 The Past Hurts

*MK's POV*
I woke up to lips on mine and started to kiss back. "Hey babe! Look the guys are still asleep, do you want to wake them up?"he said in a hushed tone. I nod and tiptoe upstairs to get Riley. We tell Hayes what to do and he gets a spoon. "IT'S GOING DOWN FOH REAL!!!"We all scream hitting our spoons on random things. The guys eventually tell us to shut up and we start to make breakfast. "How did you and Riley come up with that plan so fast?" Hayes asked standing in the kitchen "Well let's just say,whoever gets up first in the Smith house,gets the spoon!" I say laughing. While I was making pancakes I told Hayes about the many times Riley woke me up like that. I give the guys pancakes and they devour them. They help me clean up and we decide what we're going to do. We all went home ,except for me,and. Got changed we decided on playing football for a while and video games later. We all met back up at the field and started playing. My team won every time. "In your face SUCKAS!!"I screamed all up in their faces. We get done playing and head to the Grier's house. We played video games til about 12 in the morning so we decided to play a game where you tell everyone a secret that they don't know. "I'll go first!"screamed Mitchell "I still sleep with a stuffed animal". We keep going around until they get to me. I was really nervous, only Riley knew about what I would say. "Okay gurl it's your turn!" Said Mitchell in his girly voice. "I uh....dhsjdudbf" I mumbled the last part with tears brimming my eyes "What?!" "I used to......hdjejfbfjf" "WHAT?!" "I USED TO CUT MYSELF!!"I scream the tears now pouring like a waterfall from my eyes. Only Riley knew because she helped me out of it. When I started playing football, I got teased a lot and at first I couldn't handle it so I cut. I finally stopped caring what people thought but bringing that back scares me. "WHY?!"Hayes screamed I told him why and he made me show him. "Where are they?!" He asked looking at my arm "Get me a wet rag" he obeys and brings it to me. I wipe the makeup I put on there and they become visible. I hated them. I never wanted anyone to know so I covered them up. Hayes,with tears in his eyes, comes to me and kisses every scar and the boys do the same. But I look back down and I'm back to those days
*FLASHBACK*
This is for being ugly *cut*
This is for being worthless *cut*
This is for never being good enough *cut*
The list goes on and on
*END OF FLASHBACK*
We all decide on playing some more video games in the basement but Hayes pulls me upstairs. "When was the last time?"he asked holding my hand "Last time what?" "The l-last time y-you c-cut?" Tears start to come from his eyes. "No look at me, I've changed. The last time I did was last year. I'm way over that now" I said wiping his tears with my thumb "Promise me" "What?!" "Promise me you will never do it again" "Hayes I told you I'm do-" "PROMISE ME!" He begged "I promise, with all of my heart" I give him a hug and a kiss and we walk down to the basement and play more video games with the guys. We start watching movies as I slowly doze off.
*Hayes' POV*
I can't believe she never told me. I just hated the thought of her doing that. She slowly fell asleep and the guys had to leave. I eventually slowly doze off to sleep
*Hayes' Dream*
"I'm sorry Hayes. I can't deal with it anymore!"
"No I love you! Please stay! For me!" I cried begging her not to jump "Goodbye Hayes!" She says giving me one last kiss before she jumps. "NOOOOO MK!"
*End of Dream *
"HAYES WAKE UP YOU'RE SCARING ME!!" I hear MK scream "MK! YOU'RE ALIVE!!"I say hugging her and giving her a huge passionate kiss. "Woah Hayes! Calm down! What happened! " She asked wiping the tears from my face again. I was really hot and I could feel myself sweating. "I had a nightmare....that you..um...killed yourself" I said stuttering. She stared crying and we laid back down. I rap my arms around her and pull her in close. "I love you MK!" I said kissing her forehead "I love you more!" She replies kissing my cheek. And we slowly fall asleep in each others arms.