Don't Make Me ~ Kang Minhee

Three

Minhee's POV

What was I thinking? Trying to grab her hand, are you that dumb, Kang Minhee? I have to ease into things. Make it subtly obvious I like her. Although it probably already is. As soon as she left my room, I fell onto my bed. I almost wanted to cry.

I like her. I really do. But she's an assistant for the group; basically a manager. I can't fall in love with my manager. But I didn't. I fell in love with Kyunghu. Way before she convinced me to become an idol.

I know it might not seem like I like her, but that's just because I'm good at hiding it when we're around the members. They wouldn't stop pestering me if I told them. I can't believe I was bold enough to even attempt to make a move tonight.

Daydreaming is getting boring. I wish I could be with her. I can't just quit being an idol. But I can't live the next few years of my life longing for her. I'm so close, but so far.

I kept thinking and thinking, staring at my ceiling, wondering what I was going to do. How Kyunghu would react if I said something. I'm the introvert. The shy one. The shy boy expressing his feelings? Since when?

I heard someone knock at my door. I hoped it would've been Kyunghu, but I knew it wasn't. "Come in," I said.

Serim walked in, and I felt relieved for some reason. He was holding a cup in his hand. "I made you some tea, to help you rest well. We have a big day tomorrow." He set it on my nightstand and smiled at me with a genuine look in his eyes.

"Thank you, hyung," I said. He rubbed my shoulder and said, "Sleep well. It's late now." I said nothing else as he walked out. I took a sip of the tea and started to fall asleep, still thinking about Kyunghu.

Tomorrow. I'm saying something.