Really? Really.

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Chandler smiled as Joey came onto the stage and started singing with a Russian or German  sounding accent about something that he couldn't be bothered to figure out. He stared at Joey the entire time, not able to stop his smile. I know he could never love me but what's the harm in having a little crush? He thought to himself, the rest of the play flying by.

By the end of the play the rest of the group were tired of cheering and all flopped down into their chairs as Joey went backstage, so chandler went along with it and sat back down in his chair, pretending to complain. He looked to his left and saw a really pretty woman so he elbowed Ross, hoping to get Ross to date her so that Joey wouldn't be able to but everyone took it the wrong way and before he knew it he had landed a date with her.

After his date he went to the coffee house to tell the others about it.

"It was amazing we talked until like two and she's hadn't this amazing life! She fought in the Israel army!" He continued recounting his date which he had enjoyed for the most part even though he couldn't stop thinking about Joey. He got to the part where the woman had revealed she was married and also had a boyfriend and everyone made sympathetic sounds.

"Sorry it didn't work out chandler," Monica said, tilting her head.

Now chandler had a choice here. If I break up with her then I can continue being single and lonely and keep being in love with Joey, while he does it with a different woman each night in the next room. If I don't then I get a great woman, or a woman at least, who I can be with and she can help to take my mind off Joey. The second option is a clear winner so why do I feel like that would be wrong?

He sighed, deciding to cancel his seccond date. "yeah. I am too." 

~Time skip~

Later that night while Joey was out presumably at some club Monica and Rachel stopped by with a tub of ice cream. "Alright," said Monica, "you are going to tell us what's wrong."

"I beg your pardon?" Chandler asked, is it that obvious Im not okay?

Rachel handed him an open tub of ice cream and a spoon, "Listen sweety, we're all really worried and we can tell that something's bothering you so why don't you just make this easier on all of us and tell us?" 

Chandler sighed, he knew he'd have to tell someone eventually and he may as well tell Monica and Rachel about his 'boy problems'

"Okay." He dug the spoon half-heartedly into the ice cream and took a bite, "well first off you can't tell anyone about this and seccond off... its about Joey." Rachel and Monica exchanged a look. "Ever since he moved in I've felt things I've never felt for anyone and I've been so scared to admit it but I love him, and not in a platonic way. I think I'm gay, I've never felt this way towards a woman but when I'm with him I feel so happy and safe-" he stopped talking, worried of what Monica and Rachel would think of him.

"Well that's... not exactly surprising," Monica said, Rachel nodding along. "We kinda figured you had a thing for Joey."

"Wait-" chandler looked up at them, "so you guys are okay with all this, me being gay and having these feelings?"

"Oh of course!" They chorused together.

"Sweety we are more than okay with it, we love you alright?" Rachel cooed, rubbing his back as Monica nodded.

"So the fact that you love him is what's bothering you?" Monica asked.

"Well not exactly, it's more the fact that, well, he doesn't know. And the fact that if he did know he would hate me or feel weird or something would go wrong and we'd not... not be friends anymore."

Rachel and Monica protested, saying that Joey would never hate him.

"I think you need to talk to Joey," Monica said, "even if you don't want to I think you need to tell him so that you can feel better."

"But what if you guys are wrong and he does hate me?"

"Listen honey it's going to be alright, even if he doesn't like you in that way he'll always love you as a friend and he won't be uncomfortable with you being gay- we all thought you were to begin with."

"But I don't just like him I love him."

"I know, I know." The girls continued reassuring him but it was no use, he still felt depressed and anxious, but at least he'd talked about it.

~Time skip~

"Hey joe," chandler said as Joey walked through the door, his clothes messy and his hair messier. Chandler was waiting on the couch, anxiously wringing his hands.

"Chandler what are you doing up its four in the morning!?" Chandler stared blankly at Joey and tried to get some words out but he couldn't, his breathing started to speed and his eyes started watering. "Hey, hey it's alright I'm here," Joey put his keys on the table and sat on the couch, wrapping his arms around chandler and helping him breathe.

"Joey I need to talk to you," he whispered, hugging Joey back.

Joey stroked Chandlers hair to comfort him, finding it strange chandler had used his full name. "Alright..." he dragged out.

"Alright." Chandler pulled away from the hug and sat at the other end of the couch, pulling his knees into his chest and hugging himself. "I uh, well we have only lived with each other for a little while but I feel like I've known you forever and I need to come clean about something." He paused, not looking at Joey when he said, "Joe, I'm gay. And I'm... I'm in love with... well... you."

Joey was silent as he stood up, and chandler thought he was going to walk away but he didn't. Joey came to sit beside chandler and he wrapped him in a hug. "Chandler you know why I never date a woman longer than a week?"

"No," chandler mumbled from under his arms.

"It's because I don't love any of them, or any woman. I only date them to get my mind off me thinking I'm gay too. And I think that because I love you."

 Chandler looked up from his arms and sniffled, "really?"

"Really," Joey said, leaning in to kiss him.

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