The Affair

9. Is this the end

I can't even concentrate on this homework. I keep thinking about his stupid face and how stupidly gorgeous he is. Argh, it sickens me to think this. It's so wrong. Not according to Maddie it isn't, but it so is. I wonder why he missed school today. He is such a dedicated teacher and never misses classes. I'm so curious. I'll probably ask him tomorrow. I will ask him tomorrow. Should I ask him tomorrow?

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'Who's Dylan Rogers?' I asked her as she brushed her teeth. She stopped.

'What?' She had a shocked look on her face.

'You know what. Answer the question. Is he the other assistant? The young.... Handsome... Perfect Assistant?' I teased her, she knows I know what I'm talking about.

'Yes.... The assistant... Why do you ask?' She relaxed. She's good.

'Oh no reason. It's just.... When I was in the kitchen, he texted you....' Her eyes widened 'I thought professional work was usually through email. Guess I was wrong' I walked into the bedroom, leaving her in the bathroom, to think about what I had just said. I don't want to come out and say she is cheating, for all I know, she isn't.

'Alex.... Did you read my text messages?' She came out angry. Who does she think I am.

'Of course not. I'm not a paranoid person... I DO have trust in this marriage, thank you' now I'm pushing her buttons and I couldn't care less. It's horrible to say and I cannot believe I'm thinking it, but.... I don't think I.... Love her anymore. She is a whole new person to me and has been for a couple years. But recently, she had crossed the line. I said those vows and I meant them. I loved her like I've never loved anyone before. We started a family to expand our love. I just want to know why she is unhappy. She won't even let me hug her anymore. When she does, I go to kiss her and she clicks into a completely different person and starts yelling about how I'm a bad husband. This isn't a happy life. I don't deserve this at all. I'm starting to believe she doesn't deserve me or the children we have raised. Considering what happened two days ago. Poor kids, they will never unsee what happened.

'I can see what you're doing, I'm not stupid, Alex' she raised her voice. I placed my finger over my mouth, motioning for her to keep it down. 'Don't you shush me!'

'Can you not yell.... For just a day! Heck even an hour!! I'm getting real sick of your shit, Danny. And you know what. I will NOT lay here and take everything you're about to say. I did for the past two years, but that's over with baby. We Re going to work this marriage out and talk it through without the constant bitching you know so well. Do you understand?' I was looking down at her at this point, showing her who is higher status. I could see she was going to say something stupid back. 'Do you understand?!' I yelled as she opened her mouth.

'Y- yes' she muttered. Good. Im a changed person now hunny and there's no turning back.

'Great.... Goodnight' I got into bed and laid my head on the pillow.

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'Good morning, Buttercup' I gave Ava a kiss. She was having breakfast whilst watching Peppa pig. It's her favourite show. 'Morning Pal' I drove my attention to Jack.

'Morning Dad... Hey... Can I ask you a question?' Danny isn't gonna like that. I started laughing in my head. Is that bad?

'Of course'

'Can I spend the weekend at Eric's? And go to the Maroon 5 concert?'

'Maroon 5! I'm coming with you!' I yelled out, he laughed. Danny turned around and eyed Jack. His head dropped to his plate, I didn't like what I saw. 'Of course you can go! A first concert is so exciting. I'll even drop you off and pick you up!' Danny gave me an evil look. The look, actually. 'What?' I asked her