The Affair

10. Confused

What did he mean by 'this is the end'? As in, end of his marriage? She is so rude. I still can't believe she came into his work place because she is so paranoid about the cheating situation, if anyone is cheating, it's her with that assistant Alex told me about. He is such an amazing man, he doesn't deserve anything he told me. I hope this weekend goes good for him. Poor thing.

Alex's POV:

I cannot believe she came into my work, is she nuts? And the way she spoke to Avery, I know she was doing that on purpose. I can't believe she thinks I'm sleeping with my student. She disgusts me.
I can't stop thinking about the way Avery listened to me talk about my ridiculous life. I shouldn't have, it's not right, especially talking about my marriage, but I forget these things when I'm with her. I'm a different person with her. I've started thinking about quitting my job at the school. It's not right to feel this way about a student. I know nothing will happen, but things that aren't meant to be happening are, and it has to stop. I'm way too confused.

Danny's POV:

I don't feel stupid for what I did. I have a right to be paranoid... I'm starting to think I want him to cheat so it can cover up my secret. I do regret what I've done, but at the same time, I felt so happy. However, laying in bed right now, by myself, Alex in the guest room makes me realise what my life has become. What happened to us? We use to be so happy. I'm a horrible mother.

Next Morning

'I'm off to work' I addressed Alex, who was making breakfast.

'Bye' he said in an emotionless tone.

'Bye sweetie pie' I gave Ava a kiss 'Bye hun' I turned to Jack.
I wonder if my kids hate me. After what happened that night. I yelled at him horrible and I did throw a pillow at him. I know it's just a pillow, but the intention of actually throwing it. I don't know what came over me that day, I have no words about it.

I walked into the building and into the elevator, with the one women I cannot stand.

'Good morning Danny' Kylie said in a forced tone. She hates me just as much as I hate her. I did get promoted instead of her, when will she get over it?

'Yeah thanks' I said without looking at her, and thankfully the elevator doors opened just as I said it, my dramatic exit worked great. Yeah she is stunning and smart, but I couldn't care less. Maybe I could, but I won't. I walked down to my office, my huge office, with a massive window with a view of the whole city, my large dark wooden desk and my super comfy chair, I love work. I sometimes forget I share this room with the other assistant buyer, Dylan. Dylan and I met nearly 2 years ago. He actually helped me get the job of assistant buyer in the first place. Of course, I wasn't given assistant buyer, I worked hard for this position. He started working for Sarah, who's is also my boss 5 years running, 2 years ago, that's how we met. He was offered assistant buyer first due to his experience and then said that he needs another assistant buyer to help him, so she promoted me instead of Kylie, and ever since then, Kylie has been grouchy. Dylan and I got close after the first 5 months we met. He is so smart and inspiring for such a young person. I mean, I'm 38 and haven't got that much. Dylan has his 26th birthday a few months ago and that's where Alex first met him. It was awkward as anything, he was the paranoid one then! But, he has every right to be.

'Good Morning, Danielle' his voice is music. I turned to find him sitting at his desk.

'Oh, Good morning.... Umm... Did you, uh, file the documents last night?' I stuttered, why?! He smirked and rised from his seat

'Oh, come on Danny. Why all this business talk this early in the morning' he said as he walked to the door and closed it. I like where this is going.

'It's...' I took a deep breath 'It's 10 o'clock'

'Mmhmm' he walked over to me, took my bag off my shoulder and places it on the floor. Before I knew it, his thumb was sliding along my bottom lip. 'I've missed you, Danny' he kissed me. For a good 5 minutes. Once again, I do regret what's happening but I can't stop the enjoyment.

'Look... Dylan... You know I like you, a lot... But we need to be more careful' he frowned in confusion 'my husband..'

'Stop calling him that!' He snapped 'Danny, you're not happy with him! When will you give it up... What we have is so special'

'I know I know.... But it isn't easy, Dylan. Just for now... We need to lay low, like, real low. He nearly read my texts the other night'

'What! Are you serious?' He ran his hand through his hair.

'He didn't... He wouldn't, but he saw as the text came up on the screen, that.... It was from you. He is getting suspicious'

'Would that have anything to do with YOU acting suspicious? You know... The whole teacher student thing you told me about?'

'I can't help it... I feel, if I catch HIM cheating.... It might be a better opportunity for us' I cannot believe I'm having this conversation.

'And if he catches you? What then?' He walked over to me 'I love you Danny.... I do' we are kissing once again. I felt vibrations run through my body. He is magical. And I am so confused.

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'I don't know what to do, Maddie!' I poured my feelings out to her.... What are sleepovers for? I love the way she just listens to me and helps me figure out my problems. She is seriously the best person ever.

'Look... I know that I say it's fine and he's so hot and why isn't anything happening. But... He IS married and does have kids and is, like, 20 years older than you... Maybe, for now, keep it a teacher student relationship, nothing more, nothing less'

'It's hard when I'm absolutely obsessed with him! And the way.... The way he opens up to me... As the way I can actually open up to him. He is the sweetest, smartest most helpful human. He is Prince Charming, I'm super convinced'

'Yeah I know right, he looks the part too' she isn't helping my situation 'Look, all I can say is... Wait... And if something does happen. I am the first to know!' We laughed. How weird is it talking about my teacher like this. However, it doesn't feel weird when I'm actually talking about it. Now that's weird. I can help but feel this for him and I really don't know what to do... Maybe cancel these after school classes? But then I won't be getting extra help! I need it to get 100% on every test. Maybe just do classes and that's it. No talking, no getting distracted. Nothing. Just school. Man, that's gonna be so tough. Argh, I'm so confused!