You're perfect to me (Vic Fuentes fanfic)

Am I really what you wanted??

I've been sitting here for a while, on the edge of the bed, vic's still asleep, lightly snoring behind me

Tons of thoughts are going through my mind and it's driving me crazy, it's like I have an invisible person next to me whispering things that I don't want to hear, making me question myself and vic, making me question my decisions and even my relationship, I honestly feel physco

Breathing out deeply, I walk into the bathroom and run the shower, slowly getting undressed and stepping into the shower, letting the hot water run over my body

The thing about me is that showers instantly make me feel better, your alone and it gives you time to think by yourself, no voices, no nothing, the running water blocks them out, it's just you and your thoughts
Of course that's dangerous sometimes, being alone with your mind but, ah well
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"BBQ sauce... Sweet chilli sauce... Tomato sauce!" I check to myself as I make my way through the aisles, pacing up and down, shopping for items we don't need, but i think we both know why I'm actually here...

Occasionally my thoughts travel back to vic, he's most likely awake by now, his bed hair would be sticking out everywhere and he'd have an awkward boner
The last remark makes me giggle to myself, as well as receiving a few weird looks from strangers, yeah I bet I look a little crazy...

I finish wasting my money on food only vic will eat and make my way to the register

"Hello how are you today?!" The overly-happy young girl chirps to me

"Uh... I'm good" I mumble before looking down

"Mhm" she says quietly before packing my groceries

Oh god! Why me? Why do I have to make things so awkward?
I stood there for what seemed like forever waiting for her to finish, the painful silence made me cringe, I quickly grabbed my bags and left

Phew!

The cold winter air brushed past my face and through my hair as I made my way back to the car, winter is my favourite time of the year, it's all so beautiful, but my favourite part is the cold sting numbing parts of your body, is it weird that it sends an adrenaline rush through my mine?

It's just that, it's amazing that something you can't see can make you feel so numb.

Slowly I hopped into my car but I didn't drive yet, instead I just sat....and thought to myself

I've got to go home to vic sometime today...
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Vic POV

I got up a while ago..... alone

Where was she?

I hate it when she does this, just leaves without telling me it gets me so fucking worried, either she's taking time to herself or someone took her... and both of them scare me.

As usual I just mope around the house when she's not here.
It feels empty, the house I mean and me too I guess.
I can't really describe what it's like when she's not around, I think just being in her presence makes me instantly happy but when she's gone I feel... deserted.

I love being able to hold her and touch her and kiss her, there's no one quite like her, and I'm so scared she'll leave.

I just sit down at the table, loudly slurping cereal since know one is around.
I decide not to be worried, I'm sure she'll be fine...

Madi POV

Avoiding vic is hard, I'm not going to lie but to be honest I'm so embarrassed, I actually can't believe I rejected him last night, I mean i feel like it was the right time to take things to the next level but the memories came back and wrecked everything, I feel so pathetic I mean of course he wants someone else..

I just can't give him what he wants...

Instead of pulling into our street I turned the car around and continued on the main road until I reached a random motel, I quickly checked in with the remainder money I had and settled into a dirty, small and cringeworthy motel room, the bed was hard as fuck and not to mention it was also creaky, even the smallest movement made the most annoying sound, the wallpaper was also scratched and torn exposing the worn timber behind it, I made my way to the bathroom to see that the shower was clogged up but the rest of everything looked okay, so it looks like the only thing that wasn't broken and unusable was the fridge. I sighed... Ah well

I laid back in the uncomfortable bed with my mind travelling through thoughts and memories, I do that a lot, Over think the old times, thinking about what I would change and what would stay the same, what I could of said or even did that would have made my life so much easier, but if I changed the past would I still have vic?

Minutes turned into hours as I just laid there motionless, with one quick look to the window I realised it was pretty dark, so I climbed underneath the blankets and pulled my knees up to my chest wishing vic was here to hold me and sing me to sleep, but he's not, why do I always fuck up?
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Vic POV

It's dark out now and I'm worried, no matter how much ive told myself not be be worried I am, to tell the truth I'm actually petrified, she'd never out this long and if she ever is she's texts me.

I quickly check whether she's online or not and she isn't, I don't understand why she's making it so hard to contact her, what happened? Did I do something? Did something happen that I don't know about? A million thoughts are going through my mind but I always seem to just land on one.... she's gone

I throw on my jacket before leaving the house and walking around searching the area, it feels like -50 outside and madi's got the car, I walk around for about an hour, until I pass this abandoned motel a few blocks away and there I see it, our car, quickly I run over to it, examining if anyone is inside, turns out she's not in there, I end up speaking to the receptionist

"Uh, hi, have you seen a girl about yay big" I motion with my hands "got green eyes and brown hair by any chance hanging around?" I fiddle with my fingers while waiting for a response

She looks at me before slowly answering "yes, she checked in not to long ago"

"Great, what room?" I eagerly ask

"248, why?" She raised an eyebrow

"I'm her boyfriend" I quickly respond before turning on my heels and making my way to the room

I knock on the door repeatedly but there's no answer, my nerves get the best of me and I start banging on the door, still no answer, I then didn't even think... I just kicked the door in, only to reveal an unmade empty bed and madi's things are still strewn all over the ground.

"Shit!" Quickly I dial 9-1-1

"9-1-1 what's your emergency?" A woman on the other end asks

"Uh, m-my girlfriend is missing"