Alone *One Direction Fanfic*

Chapter 19

KAI'S POV

I couldn't think straight because of all the beers I chugged, so everything around me was fuzzy. The music was pounding in my head and I was covered in my sweat. It was gross and I felt claustrophobic. Everything I ate earlier that day threatened to make a reappearance. I held my mouth closed tightly for my sake and the janitor's sake. I got up from the bar and walked to the back of the bar. People were dancing, grinding, and making me feel uncomfortable. I decided I should leave before something happens. I didn't feel good and I knew I should be home sleeping. I finally made it to the back of the club and found a door. I assumed it was an exit and I opened the door. It lead to a back alley way and I believe it is the back of the club. I walked onto the cold dark streets and began to walk towards the light. The air smelled of trash and smoke. This also made a bad threat on my stomach's part. I kept staggering down the alley until I caught sight of something. It was a mailbox. No. It was a person? I stepped closer and found myself looking into two familiar eyes. I knew those eyes from anywhere. It was the guy who raped me. I tried to scream but nothing came out, I stood frozen like a deer in headlights. 

"Hello sweetheart, where do you think you're going?"

"HARRY!" I screamed.

"HARRY HARRY HARRY!" I repeated over and over again.

"Kai? Kai!?" I heard Harry say but I couldn't see him anywhere.

I was shaking but I couldn't control it. Suddenly I opened my eyes.

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My eyes fluttered open and light filled up the room. I realized that was a dream. I let out a sigh of relief and didn't even realize Harry standing over me.

"Are you okay?" Harry asked.

He looked really frightened and concerned. I could still feel the sweat on my body and my heart was still pounding. Was I okay? I shrugged, I was physically okay but mentally I was distraught. I tried to force a smile but someone would have to be blind to not notice it was a forced smile. I looked into Harry's eyes, and I noticed he was still waiting for an answer.

"Oh um yeah, now I am." I replied.

He sat down on the bed next to where I lay. I remembered I fell asleep in his room last night. It felt nice having him sit next to me. I felt safe and warm. I got butterflies just thinking how close we were. He took my hand in his and already I felt a shock run up my arm. I smiled but this time it wasn't forced.

"Do you want to tell me what it was about?" He asked.

I looked down at our hands. I deffinetly didn't want to recap what had happened but I knew I was safe now and there was no point in worrying. Harry would protect me, I was sure of it. I explained what I remembered to Harry, and he stayed attentive throughout the whole story. I felt like he honestly cared which made me smile. He didn't butt in and interrupt me, he just kept looking at me as I spoke. He was very concentrated and that made me grateful. He listened but most of all he care. When I was done he frowned. 

"Well Kai, that was a really bad dream but you know how I know that's never going to happen?" He asked.

"Why?"

"Because I would never leave you in that type of situation. I would never put you in any kind of danger ever again. I already let you slip through my fingers once and that's not happening again." He said.

I smiled and I felt tears swell into my eyes. That was so sweet, I couldn't remember the last time I felt safe like this but then I did remember. I felt safe like this when I was 13, when my parents were still alive and I didn't even know what suffering was. He made me feel like my safe 13 year old self again and I enjyoed it. I couldn't help it, I began to cry. He looked upset and confused.