Boy with Luv || A Jeon Jungkook Fanfic

Chapter 28

Jia's pov

Its been six days since that awful accident, I hadn't received any harsh comments from both unnie's like I had expected- maybe that was because I had told them I didn't feel anything for him and neither did he. I was ignoring Jungkook deliberately, I did not want to cause a scene. I know this was wrong but I couldn't help it. It broke me everytime I saw him calling for me on the sets or in the home and I didn't answer. The way his eyes turned sadder every time we made an eye contact, it hurt me a lot but I didn't want to risk his image.

We had to depart again for America for some promotions before the tour starts. Today was 20th April, my mom's birthday. I prayed for her, made her fav sweet- an Indian sweet called Sooji ka halwa(sweet made of semolina, water and sugar) and ate it thinking she was with me. I was in my room, wishing I could just have one look at her face, just once only for one second. I sighed, wiped my eyes and picked up the bowl to go wash it. 

I was almost done with the washing when a hand grabbed my upper arm and turned me around. I knew it was him, the strong grip had already alerted me. I looked up at him, shocked at his behavior, he was never aggressive. After my initial shock, I calmed myself down, pulled my hand from his grip and turned around and placed the bowl neatly onto the shelf. Ignoring him was better, I had heard some rumors already about me and my character I wasn't giving them more content.

"You are ignoring me" His voice was sad. Something broke in me, I hated seeing him sad, seeing any of my members sad but this had to be done, to prevent him from what he will go through once he knows me.

"You-you" his voice cracked and I instantly turned around.

He turned his face away from me, he was crying. I hated that he would cry so easily. I do cry but seeing him cry was different. 

"They didn't-didn't scold you and you are still ignoring me, did I do something wrong?" He stuttered and kept rubbing his ears, scratching them a little too hard. I couldn't see him like this. So fragile. So breakable.

"I am sorry- I told- told hyungs to not d" His sentence was cut off when I hugged him, instead it turned into a quiet sigh. I held onto his waist, listening to the fast tempo of his heart- mine was the same. His body was very stiff, but I didn't let go, I regretted it now, not telling him the truth, I regretted all of it.

"Its ok" I whispered, he had heard it of course. I clutched him tighter, afraid he might break down soon. Everyone kept telling me he liked me, I was the dumb idiot to not believe it, I had hurt him so much and now I was going to make it up to him.

I looked up at him, his light-honey cheeks moist with tears, his full lips slightly trembling as he continued crying silently. I wiped off his tears, he just kept looking at me with an intense gaze. My body reacted and shivered but I held tight to myself, I was not going to be weak when he needed me.

"Jia" His voice was just a whisper but I shushed him, no talking right now. He was getting what he should have, what I should give him.

I held his hand and made him walk to my room, all my insecurities about the rumors being all forgotten. He needed me, thats all it mattered.

I made him sit on the bed and turned on the lamp that projected stars on the ceeling, turned the lights low and sat beside him- this is what I used to do when I felt low. I had a lamp like this in my old home, it was bit high quality but this one wasn't less either. He sniffled slightly, I hated when he was like this, tensed nervous and panicky.

"Jungkook shii-" I got cut off instantly.

"Don't. Call me Jungkook-ahh or something" His lips were in a pout and I couldn't help but let out a chuckle.

He whined a bit and hit me playfully on my shoulder.

"Ouch!" I gasped, it hurt. I rubbed my shoulder. This guy had to be careful, he did boxing all the time.

"Sorry, sorry" He was giggling suddenly and rubbing the spot he had just hit. My body felt like it was having its best time. His hand was large enough to cover my shoulder. He was leaning towards me, my heart felt like it could jump out of my body, I could smell his deo now. He used a very specific one, it was different- it smelled like cool air and musk I loved it.

I didn't realise I was staring at him until he looked up and our eyes locked. His eyes were a deep brown-black, mixed with a little golden shade, I had the sudden urge to capture the most HD image of his eyes and keep it with me forever. I looked closely, as much as I could, I kept looking at his moles, oh those moles, I sighed, they were my favorite features of him. 

He gulped, his adam's apple bobbed a little and my eyes caught that moment instantly. We were so close that we could feel each others breath.

"Stop me if you want to" I said, I had to. This side of me, the one I hadn't know had existed until Jungkook. 

I so desperately wanted him to stop me, because if he didn't I was going to kiss him, I have never thought about it, but when he was this close, this pretty, this- I didn't know how would I even describe him- he made me want to do things.

"I don't" he said and kissed me on my lips.

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