Boy with Luv || A Jeon Jungkook Fanfic

Chapter 32

I had been overthinking about dad's message since 2 nights. It was exhausting and it made me mad more often. I didn't want to leave, not because of a certain doe-eyed person with a lot of tattoos and the cutest smile. Nope, it wasn't because of him.

"Yah, Man Jia!" I jumped up from my chair at Jimin shii's voice.

"Are you listening?" I nodded. I wasn't but he didn't need to know that. Jimin's face turned into a smirk.

"I was asking if you and Jungkookie did" I smacked my hand on his mouth. Blushing furiously at the mere mention of the topic.

Tae started laughing and I withdrew my hand. Me, Jimin and Tae were sitting near their camp vans as the whole crew had gone for lunch. I was forced to have lunch here by my bestfriends, sometimes I questioned their sanity.

"You, you are so cute" Jimin said as he laughed harder. I hid my face in my hands. Me and Jungkook did try somethings on his birthday but nothing that involved taking off clothes. We had just french kissed, that's it. I had been too nervous to ask him to continue and he, being the sweetest he is, he complied.

The same thing had happened during the Paris concert when he looked all sweaty and gorgeous. I was the one who always chickened out, red faced and panicky. It felt wrong somehow, I didn't know why, but it felt wrong.

"Ya Jimin-ahh, leave her alone. If she doesn't want to share, she won't" I smacked my forehead at Tae's words. Drama queen.

"For the last time, No! We didn't do anything!" I yelled at them, my heart racing wild. I had some images inside my head, of me and Kookie laying on the bed, in each other's arms, making love and I cursed myself at that. Dirty mind!

"What did you not do Jia?" I snapped my head in the direction of Jungkook's voice. If it was possible my heart was beating even faster now.

"Not she" I hastily cut off Jimin's statement and said "he was saying how I was a coward to not go on that pendulum ride" Jungkook chuckled.

My stomach erupted in butterflies. It always did when he laughed, that high pitched carefree laugh was my favourite.

"It's ok Jia-iee" Tae patted my head giving me a fake smile. I replicated it and he smirked.

"Not everyone has the guts right" He even winked at me. I cursed him with the worst words I knew inside my head. They were so getting a mouthful later.

Jungkook laughed and pinched my cheeks. He was looking at me so closely, I hadn't been looked at like that ever. He was so special to me, the best. I silently thanked God for making me meet him.

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Night fell leaving me alone with my stupid thoughts. I shouldn't be lying to him, not about something so important. I needed to do something about it or I would go crazy.

I needed to talk to him about this, about myself. I couldn't lie to him anymore. This cat and mouse game was coming to an end and I didn't want him to know from someone else.

It was now or never. If I didn't tell this to him right now, I would never be able to and I didn't have time. I had only 10 days of September and some days of October before I left.

My heart worried at that. Would be together when I left? Of course, I would make it work for sure. Maybe even work with them permanently or maybe stay home and wait for him when he comes from tours and stuff. Be his number one supporter, yes that sounded good.

I took a pen and my notebook and started to write a letter to him, I didn't want to chicken out on my words so I decided I would write to him and give him and let him decide what he wanted. He would understand me, Tae told that and Namjoon hyung said the same thing. He liked me, I loved him, yeah he would understand for sure. And so I wrote,

Dear Jungkook,

Just like the meaning of your name, I am grateful for you. You are so sweet and beautiful inside out that it was impossible to not fall in love with you. I don't know what good deeds I have ever done to get as close as I am today to you but I always will be greatful to know you. To know your stories, to know what your tattoos mean, to know how you sneak presents for your mom even when she refuses, to know how much you adore your hyungs.

I dont even know where to start but let me be straightforward like always, yeah? Please don't be sad or angry on what I am about say to you, I mean, write to you... You get me right?

I am not Man Jia, I am not an orphan. You have constantly asked me if we have met before and I have always refused. No, Jungkookie we have met before. 2015 fan sign, the girl who gave you a box of chips and the other guy who gave you a coupon of free membership of a rameyon shop? Yeah that was me and My bestfriend. 2017 fan sign, I gave you 365 letters- they were from my bestfriend who was in America. He is your biggest fanboy, I tell you.

When you said that you have seen me on the TV, yes I am Lee Sia. I don't look like her, I am her. I am the missing daughter of the CEO of Lee and co., The daughter of Lee Sakshi.

I am sorry my love, I had to hide this from you because I am being chased by my own uncle just for the money. I have been kidnapped once already, my parents' didn't want risk a second time. Your producer, Rain PD nim is my my father's bestfriend. He gave me this job, this fake name. I wanted you to know this, this truth about me from my mouth and not anyone else, because you deserve it. You deserve to know the truth and I can't keep you in the dark anymore.

Before you start overthinking, no I really love you. I just wanted you to know that I lied to you about everything but this- that I love you. I have fallen completely in love with you Jeon Jungkook. I love you with my everything and I don't even want you to love me back, it's ok if you feel that, I would understand. Please give me a chance to explain this whole mess. I just want you to know that whatever you decide after reading this, I will support it. I won't question your words. But please know that there is a girl, Lee Sia who will love you with all her heart and soul.

PS: Please don't take me as a liar, because I am not. I hope you understand that.

Love,
Sia.

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Shit is about to go down you guys.

Byeeee *sassly flips hair*

Stuti💜💜