FALLING IN LOVE

CHAPTER 35

MINA'S POV

Pain. It was all I knew. It was all I could feel.

For days after Chaeyoung and I "broke up". I laid in my bed, stucked in the past, each flashback sending a dagger through my already broken heart.

Everything seemed to remind me about him and that hurt even more. But you know what hurt the most? The fact that I was still in love with him.

I didn't want to admit it but deep down, I knew that if he came over and apologized, I would forgive him. I wanted him back in my life so bad and it hurts knowing that was never going to happen again.

But the worst thing was running into him at school. We hadn't spoken a word to each other since that day that ruined everything but seeing him caused just as much heartache.

Being in the same room with him made me want to cry my eyes out so much, I started avoiding all the classes we shared together but even that wasn't enough to keep us out of each other's paths.

To cope, I shut myself out from everything and everyone. My life was pretty simple. Wake up. Go to school. Lock myself in room. Cry myself to sleep. Then do it all over the next day.

I was a broken mess and I knew it but what else could I do when the one person who completed me no longer wanted me?.
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A knock at the door jolted me out of my most recent flashback. I rubbed my blurry eyes and blinked a little, struggling to get out of the fuzz I was in.

The knock came again, this time persistently and I debated, going to open the door or waiting till the person tired and went away.

I decided to settled back into the mess that had become my haven since the break-up AKA my bed.

"Mina, please could you open the door? I really need to talk to you", A familiar voice came from behind the door. My head snapped to the door and I sighed. Sana.

We hadn't spoken in days since I wasn't much for company anyway. I also didn't want her to pity me.

It was already pretty known around school that Chaeyoung and I had broken up and the last thing I never wanted or needed was pity. Still, I couldn't resist from letting her in.

I rolled off the bed and dragged my feet across the floor to the door. I turned the lock and pulled open the door, soon finding myself staring into the affectionate sympathetic beautiful eyes of my best friend.

She flashed me a tiny smile and held up two large tubs of ice cream before wrapping her hands around me.

When she finally let go, she walked into the room and I locked the door. By the time, I turned around, Sana was looking round my room, wide-eyed.

The room was dark except for a few rays of sunshine shining through the curtain which was down as well.

My bed with everything from pizza boxes, tubs of fried chicken, tubs of ice cream and loads and loads of tissue paper.

I sat back in the mess and motioned for Sana to sit. She eyed the chair in my room and the bed I was sitting on before eventually settling on the bed.

"So how have you been?", She started when the silence dragged on for too long.

"Look around me, Sana. How do you think I've been?", I remarked but on noticing the look on her face, I amended.

"Sana, I'm sorry for my tone with you. It's just~".

"Oh, no need. I understand. It was a silly question to ask".

"Either way, I apologize. How have you been?".

"I've been doing good. Prepping for finals and all but other than that, everything's going good", Her expression softened.

"I'm so sorry about Chaeyoung, Mina", She added.

"Don't say his name!", I said, struggling to keep my voice even.

"Sorry", She apologized quickly.

"It's just... I never would've thought that you two would ever actually break. You guys always seemed... I dunno, perfect for each other, you know?".

I began to tear up and I felt the guilt build up in me. That'd been happening since the day You-know-who and I broke up.

I'd been thinking that maybe he'd been right, that maybe lying to Grandma and everyone hadn't exactly been the best idea. And so, with that in mind, I made a decision.

"Sana, I have to tell you something", I began shakily.

"What is it, Mina?".

I took a deep breath and started. I told her everything, from the prank I played on Chaeyoung that led to us kissing to Momo and Grandma setting us up to our plan to fake date and everything after that. I left out no details, well I did but just the really special ones.

By the time I finished, Sana was staring at me, mouth agape.

"Oh my gosh! So you mean, all this while, you and Chaeyoung haven't dating but actually pretending?!".

"Yup. That's right. At least, not until a few weeks ago. You're not mad, are you?", I asked.

"Well, normally I would be but I understand why you did it".

"Really? Too bad Chaeyoung doesn't feel the same way", I heaved a regretful sigh.

"Yeah but Mina?".

"What?".

"While I don't agree with Chaeyoung and I think what he did was wrong, don't you think that, maybe he was kinda right?".

"Right to break up with me?".

"No, of course not", She exclaimed, shaking her head sideways.

"I mean, about the whole lying to Grandma thing not being too nice. You deceived her and while I know it was for the right reasons, it was still lying and deceit".

Sana's words hit deep and I knew she was saying the truth. I fell back in bed and sighed.

"So what do I do about it?".

"For starters, get out of that bathrobe and take a bath because you stink!", She scrunched her face up in mock disgust. Her face was so funny that I couldn't resist bursting into laughter.

"Speaking of stink, when was the last time you had a bath anyway?".

"This morning. At least, if you call cleaning my face in water this morning a bath", I shrugged. Sana stared at me like she couldn't believe what I was saying.

"Okay, that's it! Get your stinky butt in the bathroom right now before I make you!", She growled with fire in her eyes.

"Okay, okay. So pushy", I muttered, getting out of bed.

"And what will you be doing while I'm in the bathroom?".

"I'll clean up this, you call a room starting with your trash of a bed", She gave me a disapproving look.

"And what happens after I have a bath?".

"Well, let's just say we'll make things right", She winked at me.
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I found myself at Grandma's grave. My eyes burned with tears as I dropped the flowers I brought on her headstone and knelt in front of it.

"Hi, Grandma", I began, choking back tears.

"It's been really bad since you left. I know you couldn't stay forever but I wish you hadn't gone so soon. I really miss you", A tear slid down my cheek and landed on her headstone.

"Anyway, I'm just here to apologize for everything. I'm sorry I lied to you about Chaeyoung and I. I'm sorry I let you believe a lie for so long. If I could take it, I-I would. You didn't deserve any of it and I'm sorry. I hope that one day, you'll forgive me, wherever you are. I love you".

I pressed two fingers to my lips and touched her name on the headstone, whispering a final goodbye as I stood up. I turned to go but froze in my tracks at the sight of a very familiar face.

Son frigging Chaeyoung.

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A/N: Sorry if there were typos and grammatical errors.