Lycoris || Technoblade x OC

-Thirty Four-

TW: Crying, panic

It was the day of the funeral. There were speeches, sympathetic smiles, tears, and light-hearted smiles. There wasn't much that I hadn't already heard, the same fake condolences, but this time they were at least genuine. They came mostly from my friends since I hadn't exactly been social. 

I spent the last two days holed up in my bedroom, forcing myself not to shed another tear. Dream constantly checked in on me but warned everyone else to keep their distance. I tended to lash out when I got angry. 

The voices had also started repeating, whatever Dream had done, it was wearing off. 

Another person who had still visited me was Technoblade. he didn't really explain to Dream why he was there, but. think Dream understood.

He let Techno and I have time to ourselves in my bedroom. We always just talked, sometimes not even that. He'd just sit beside me, letting me stare at the wall and listen to his gentle recollections of stories. He sometimes told me about Tommy and Wil or about his time as a runaway, but most of the time, he shared stories of greek gods and goddesses, describing flawed and heartless heroes. 

The funeral was held in the garden, there was a burial, a speech and then that was it. Niki gave me a gentle hug, eyes rimmed red, a sorry smile on her face. I tried to give her one back but just squeezed her hand instead. I held Sapnap for a long time, he just stood there, his arms around me. He didn't promise me that it would be okay, he didn't say anything about it getting better, there were no words, just his comfort. 

Callahan didn't really do much, he sat next to me on a bench and drew a portrait of Ranboo. Bad and Skeppy, the black-haired guard, gave me their condolences, but there wasn't much that they could say. 

George hugged me tightly, kissing my forehead in a brotherly way and holding me to his chest. He told me that he was sorry about everything and that it would take much time for this to heal. 

Puffy, having heard from a letter that was sent by Dream, sent over a detailed letter back, addressed to me. I read it and almost broke into tears. Puffy told me that Ranboo had been like a son to him and that losing him reminded her so much of her own son's death. 

There was no word from Tuboo, Tommy, Phil, Wilbur, or Kristin, but Techno did say they wished they could be here with us. 

I wore the necklace that Ranboo had given me, so long ago. I vowed to never, ever let myself take it off. It was the only thing had left of him. 

I picked up my violin, sitting on my bed. I had my mask and cloak off, only in my nightclothes. I don't think anybody was awake, and if they were, I'm sure that this wouldn't bother them much. 

Putting the violin onto my shoulder, I closed my eyes. I thought back to years ago when I'd play music for Ranboo. he always liked Moonlight Sonata. I played through the song, it was a long piece. Ranboo said it had helped him fall asleep, so it was a song I played very frequently at night. 

Nightmares plagued us all I think, and ranboo had it quite bad. He went through so much at such a young age, and he still died so early. He had so much more to live up to, and I know that I would've taken his place in a heartbeat.

I inhaled sharply, my fingers touching my cheeks and retracting to find them wet with tears. Shit, I wasn't meant to cry, not over this. If I cried, I'd never be able to stop. 

I tried to stop, closing my eyes and breathing deeply. It wasn't working. 

Swallowing my cries, I shoved my mask and cloak on. I pushed my bedroom door open, heading to Dream's bedroom.

I rushed up the stairs, being deathly quiet even though I could feel my heart racing. 

I reached Dream's door, knocking. 

It took less than two seconds, and then I was in Dream's arms. 

"Hey, Freya, it's okay, you're okay Freya, this was needed, you're allowed to cry" Dream whispered. His voice was calm, but I could feel his heart beating unevenly. I knew this must be affecting him too, I felt so bad that he couldn't share his feelings with me. 

I shook my head against his chest. 

"I can't- I have to.... make it stop please, I have to stop" I stammered, sobbing and yanking the mask off of my face. Dream stayed silent, rubbing my back. I heard the door open, and the shuffling of feet. 

I have pulled away from Dream. Panicked, I bolted up, backing away from whoever touched me. 

"Freya, it's okay, it's Nick," Sapnap's soothing voice called out. I relaxed, moving closer. "Dream has to go do something, but I can stay with you," he promised. I nodded, leaning into his touch as he sat me down. 

"You're very brave Freya, I do not think I could have held my tears in for that long," Sapnap said, resting his chin on my head. 

"I'm not brave, I was just afraid that if I cried, I would never have been able to stop," I said quietly. Sapnap chuckled.

"Everything will be okay, you've stopped, but I'm sure that this won't be the last time Freya, and that is completely okay," he said.

I nodded. 

A/N- Hello!! I'm not sure if you guys saw my last chapter, but I took another week off. Here is a chapter. Sorry, it's a bit short, and a bit of a filler. I'm planning to wrap this bok up, getting some major fast pace plot.