I Fell In Love With My Brother's Best Friend

Chapter ~ 12 confused.

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I blink a few times at Mason. I have no idea what to say my throat has a bubble stuck in it. I can tell he regretted saying it because his smile fades when I don't answer back.

"I'm sorry," he shakes his head. "I shouldn't of said that,"
I was trying to say it's fine but nothing came out. He nods and walks away Sam walks after him.

This is Mason were talking about. I've known him such a short time I can't rush into this. I don't even know if I can ever be with Mason. It seems wrong to Sam if I was with his best friend.

I try to unravel the thoughts in my head. I like Mason but I don't know if I like that much. I want to run after him and tell him I'm sorry. But my feet are stuck I can't move at all.

I've came to a conclusion, if Mason wasn't here I'm sure things would be better. I'm not blaming Mason for this. It's not his fault. It's my fault for letting him in my life.

If I never let him in my life I'd be better off. The way he makes me feel is like I'm on a cloud. Every thing seems easy with him on good days. On bad days it's like going through hell.

Like today was horrible today was about the worst day of my life. If Sam and Mason weren't here then I could've gone too far. I just don't know. He says he likes me. I like him too, don't get me wrong. But it's way to fast for a relationship for me.

I need to develop more of a friend ship with Mason. I chose my eyes wishing my brain would shut up. Sam walks back to me messing with his thumbs.

"I have to tell mom," he says quietly.

I stare blankly at him. "No," was all I said.

"I have no choice Cassie," he retorts. "You could've done some serious damage or worse," he hisses.

I look at my shoes not saying anything. "She'll send me back," I say softly. "She'll send me back to the worse place on earth Sam."

"No," he shakes his head. "We'll try something else. Maybe once a week therapy or groups or-"

"Sammy," I say his old nick name. I place my hands on his shoulders and he looks at me. "I'm glad you're looking out for me, but telling mom isn't going to help me it will make things worse. I don't want to do therapy or groups, or whatever else there is. They won't help me, it's stuck in my brain for life," I drop my hands.

What I said is true. I can't fix it, it's unfixable, people might say. 'Oh things get better' they don't. And they never will, so what's the point of trying. Sam rubs his hand on his forehead.

"I'm sorry," he says. I smile at him.

"It's okay Sam," he nods his head and I walk into the living room and softly sit down. Right when I sit, my mind switches to thinking about Mason. I groan rubbing my head. Is anything ever going to get better?

'It's pointless Cassie you know you like Mason'

'No I don't'

'Yes you do, if you didn't then why do you care so much, about what he told you?'

'I don't know I'm just confused'

'Well stop being confused you need to figure this out'

I mentally hit my self in the head to make my thinking shut up. I lay my head on the arm of the chair and flip on the tv, trying to block out the thoughts.

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I stand in front of the mirror with Ashton behind me with a wild smile played on her face.

"Cassie you look amazing!" She squeals. I laugh, giving her a small hug.

"Remind me why we're going to this party," I tell her fixing the lipstick on the side of my cheek.

"Because," she says. "Because you need a fun night with all that has happen," she grins at me, while handing me a pair of black flats. "Put them on and let's go."

I place the shoes on my feet and walk down stairs. Mason is talking to Sam in the kitchen. My breathe turns short, I haven't talked to Mason since he told me he liked me. I instantly turned around and walked the other way.

"Cassie, wait," he grabs my arm before I reach the door. My body tenses, I haven't had a lot of time to think about it. It's been three days since he told me I need more time. I turn my body and face him. "Look, if I new you were going to act like this when I told you I wouldn't have never done it," he shakes his head.

I don't answer and he continues. "I've had a little time to think, and I know what you're thinking. That we've known each other for a short time and you need more time to think about the options."

Damn he's good.

"I'll give you as much time as you need to answer me, I'm not going to rush you, I know that this is to fast for you hell, it's way to fast for me," he laughs, and I give him a smile. "So take the time you need, and if you don't want me like that then I'm always a friend, and if if you do, maybe we can be more," he says the last part so soft I could barley here him.

Sam leans on the counter giving me a small smile.

I don't say anything, all I do is walk out the front door into Ashton's car.

The party, was nothing special the same old high school party, Shawn wasn't there so that was good.

At the party I sort of sat there, like in Perks Of Being A Wallflower, just thinking. About Mason, and most in general, about life.

Ashton dropped me off a few minutes ago, as I unlock the door I hear laughter, so I put my keys down on the counter and walk down the hall where the laughter grew.

It stopped at Mason's door.

I know I should probably knock but I didn't, I open the door and Mason was kissing another girl. Not a surprise in my book, it just hurts like hell. I let out an uncomfortable cough, and Mason and the girl separate. "Since you're busy I'm just gonna go," I point out the door still looking in Mason's eyes.

"Cassie," he gets out and was right I front of me. I place my hands on his chest.

"No Mason," I shake me head. "No," my voice quivers. "You told me you liked me. And of course I believed you," I hiss.
He looks at my hands still placed on his chest. "I thought you actually liked me, and you were right it all is too fast," I close my eyes. "But I was going to give you a chance."

"Cassie, please-" he chokes on the last words, not because he's crying it's because he's lost for words. "Please let me explain," he begged. I shake me head dropping my hands from his chest.

"No," I say. "We're not dating why do I even care," I shake me head walking out his door.

"Don't go," he tells him grabbing my wrist. A tear falls down on my cheek. I can hear the hurt in his voice. I shake my wrist out of his grasp and walk to my room and close my door.

I sit on the floor by my bed and cry. It's all to fast the feeling the emotions the happy ones the sad ones the confused ones. I want my feeling to go away. I don't know why I care so much. I've known him for such a small time it shouldn't matter.

But it matters so much.

I want to forget everything. I grab my phone and look at my contacts. I click Shawn's name.

"Hello," his raspy voice asks.

"Hi," I say with a little hesitation.

"Cassie?" He asks in a shocked voice.

"Can I come over?"

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OMG so here is a chapter you guys have been waiting on one forever. So here it is, I'm so sorry I couldn't get it up sooner but it's up now I hope you liked it!!!!!!
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P.S Shawn dis take Advantage of Cassie, but they did used to date. So, that's why she called him. Hope this helps with confusion.