I Fell In Love With My Brother's Best Friend

Chapter~11

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I catch up to Mason who was a few feet in front of me. He looks at me and keeps walking, I raise my eyebrow and walk his speed.
"What?" He stopped to look at me. I finch at the tone of his voice.

"What's wrong with you?" I punch his arm playfully. He stares at me and laughs.

"You seriously don't get it do you?" A hurtful smile forms on his lips, he starts towards his car.

"No I don't," I retort. He stops still facing his car. "I have no idea what you are even talking about," I call at him. "You were comforting me ten minutes ago, and now you are fucking mad at me," he turns around. "What hell am I supposed to get?" I ask in a softer voice.

"That you could understand," he shakes his head still standing in the same place. I turn around to see Sam and Ashton looking at me, the immediately turn around and pretend to engage into a conversation.

"Understand what Mason?" I ask looking around. "What the fuck do you mean?"

"Jeez Cassie," his voice raises. "Are you that fucking clueless that you can't take a hint of what that means?" He glares at me.

It hurts that he's so mad at me, I've never had this feeling before, not with anyone, so when he yells I want to just run away and cry cause I can't take the yelling. Mason Bartley tell me why you're mad I want to be the friend I need to be. Mason Bartley I fucking like you.

"I guess I am," I laugh. "Because, you can't tell me what the fuck I did for you to be this mad at me you can't even look me in the eye," he looks up off the the ground up to me, and then I hits me why he wasn't looking.

I could see the hurt in his eyes. I never said anything to him to make him feel this way it makes no sense. I could feel eyes on my back and I knew it was Sam and Ashton. I want to end this conversation and walk away.

I've never been good with fights that's one of my imperfections. You hear that mom? I'm not the perfect daughter you wanted. I can't always be the one that can't do everything. I break down after every single thing that hurts me. I can't help the pressure anymore.

I want to run, and so I do.

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I just run stomping my feet on the pavement. I'm not crying, i feel it but it's not coming. I don't know where I'm going i just turn down streets. I keep looking behind me to see if anyone followed me. No one. Why would they?

I stop once I reach my house, I didn't know I was running in the direction to my house. I walk into my house and slam the bathroom door. I look at myself in the mirror and burst into tears. "Fuck my life," I throw every thing off the counter and hold my head. Why am I still here? Why would anyone want me here? I scream and hit the wall. My mom wanted s perfect daughter, and she never got one, and she never will. She made me like this.

I can't blame her, she didn't do this. I did. I was the one who didn't eat and starved myself, I was the one who refused to get better, I was the one who wants to kill her self for the way I look. It's not about Mason why I'm mad. Im mad at myself for thinking everything could get better. Everything just getting worse and worse.

All the memories of Missouri flash into my mind, and I cry harder. They tried to help me and I refused. I didn't do anything there. It made everything worse.
My lungs tighten and its harder to breathe. I brought this on to myself. I grab my phone with my shaky hands and look at a message. I throw my phone across the bathroom.

Fuck you Mason fuck you Ashton. I put my head between my legs and cry more. Ashton posted a picture of her and Mason.

She was kissing his cheek. It felt like everything in my body had been ripped out. I cry more. I don't know why it hurts so much it just does. After awhile of crying I look at the message again. How could she even dare to do that? I know I never told her my feeling for Mason but it still hurts. I look at the mess on the floor, that I made earlier. I grab a toothbrush and head to the toilet.

It's been awhile since I did this, so it's not the hard. I cry more. I know I shouldn't be doing this. It makes my walls break down even more. But I continue. I hear the front door open and running footsteps past the door.

"Cassie?" Sam and Mason call simultaneously. I stay silent. They call my name longer and longer till the bathroom door starts moving. Sam walks in and looks at me. "Cassie," he says breathless. He looks at the toothbrush in my hand then back to my face. "No, no, no," he takes the toothbrush out of my hand. "Please Cassie, don't tell me you," he doesn't finish sentence. I nod. He hugs me and kisses my hair. "You're not alone in this world," he tell me. I let out a small sob.

"Everyone has their ups and downs Cassie," he says with tears in his eyes. "A lot of people fall in this world," Sam shakes his head. "Cassie, please don't fall again," he shakes me. "You are my sister and I love you," my eyes start bubbling again. "I can't see you fall, not again it hurts to know you go through this pain," I hug him.

"Asking you to be happy is like a death wish," he says. "I want to help you, you just need to tell me how," he says. I nod wiping my tears with my arm. "Did you find her?" I hear Mason call. He walks to the bathroom and looks at me.

"Cassie," he says in the same way Sam did earlier. I stare at him, and he stares back. He grabs me in his arms. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have gotten mad at you," he says, his breathe tickles my neck.

"You think I did this to myself cause of a little fight," I say back. He stays silent. "I did this because I can't handle it anymore," I tell him. "And it didn't help with Ashton posting the picture of you and her."

He looks at me. "Yeah I don't know why she did that," he says softy.

"I do." I pause. "She likes you."

"Well I kinda feel bad for her," his voice shakes a little.

"Why?" I ask.

"Because I kinda like this girl names Cassie."

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So, I should of probably did a better teaser cause it's not just about Ashton's secret. So Cassie had a break down. Kinda serious. Mason said he liked her. What will Cassie say? I think Mason is bipolar XD But anyways sorry if my writing was over dramatic I've never went through this kind of situation so I'm not all that sure. I hoped you guys liked it.

Teaser// surprise XD

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