Those Willing to Drown | Beiguang x GN! Reader

ARC II-ACT VII

CW: nsfw mentions between beidou and the reader, NOT THE ACTUAL ACT but references to it. Consent is given but it was out of guilt, read with caution.

What should have only been an hour had quickly turned into an entire night of drinking - the small get-together pushing into the early hours of the night. It wasn't until Kazuha blacked out on one of the wooden tables and other members became too tipsy to stand on their wobbly two feet that the party had begun to die down.

Well, for them at least.

Beidou sang an upbeat song about a sailor and his mermaid - a story about the siren having lulled the sailor in with promises of riches and a place to belong only to get his heart ripped out and eaten.

On of your hand lay on her waist and the other held her hand at shoulder height, directing her around the room with a skip to your step. The smile on your face had begun to put an ache on your cheeks, face tinted red and head spinning in just the right directions. You hadn't drank enough to get drunk, but it felt nice to have something in your system to loosen yourself up.

As you moved to the beat of her song, you also took advantage of the limited space between you both to appreciate Beidou to her fullest. Other than her physical appearance (which was beyond that of a goddess), she had an overbearing body heat - something you had already taken note of more than once before. This time though, you could take note of her smell - a perfume so soft you would have never imagined the woman wearing it, but it suited her nonetheless.

Once she sang the last word, you lead her to a soft stop, dipping her back softly only to see her laugh and then finishing the dance all together. "You have a beautiful singing voice." You panted, your shirt sticking to your skin due to the thin layer of sweat.

She thanked you, but said nothing more on the manner, instead opting to quickly turn around and walk off back to your seats. You followed after her.

As she sat down, oddly quietly, you trailed your eyes up and down. Her body language was oddly shut off, refusing to meet your eyes and shoulders tightly hunched up. Where did this even come from?

"Are you..." You furrowed your brows, reaching forward to soft pat her shoulder. "Are you okay?"

She flinched when your hand met her body though, causing you to retract and apologise. Beidou, however, shook her head. "Sorry, it's just... it's been a while since I've felt so happy, you know?" Finally, she turned, the look in her eyes pitifully hurt.

You felt your heart pang painfully at her expression, slowly reaching out again to place your hand where she had flinched away from you before. "I'm happy too. Really happy."

"Do you really mean that." She frowned, turning so her body could be fully facing you.

You tried retracting your hand, but she placed her own over it, stopping you in place. "Do you not believe me?"

"I believe you, I just..."

"Is there anything I can do to prove it to you?" You frowned. Her hand twitched on top of your own and a look of surprise flashed in her eyes.

For a second, you regretted saying that.

Standing to her feet, she took a step closer to you, almost so close your chests touched. "Do you like me?"

"Do I- what?" Your brows furrowed in confusion. "Beidou we kissed."

"Yeah, but do you like me enough to take it a step further?"

"A step further? Like a relationship?"

"Like an act more intimate." She rolled her eyes, as if what she were saying were more normal and obvious to what you had suggested.

"What?!" You gasped, cheeks warming at the thought of such an act. She was asking you to have sex as if it were her second nature.

Was this what she viewed you as? A hook up? You couldn't help but frown. "I don't know Beidou... I'm not into those one time things."

"Who said this was a one time thing?"

"It's just that we only just kissed today... I only just found out you had feelings for me. Isn't this moving too fast? What about when you have to leave out to sea?"

"I fixed that though," she whined. It was the first time you heard such a noise from her, and you wondered if it was her feelings or the alcohol that did that. "you don't have to worry about anymore. Do you not want to be with me?"

"I want to!" You defended yourself, trying to softly push her away when she finally took the final step closer and placed her body onto yours. Her arms circled around your shoulders and her lips immediately went to place scorching hot kisses on your cheek, jawline, neck, anywhere she could.

"I want to be with you, it's just that you found home on the sea and I'm constantly trying to escape the fatui. At any moment something could go wrong and we could both be hurt."

"But you like me." She whispered, blowing hot air into your ear. "You make me so happy, why do you want to make me sad again?"

"I'm not trying to make you sad!" You gasped, trying to pull back to look at her but failing to do so.

"Then why don't you let us have this? If you know it'll make us both feel good, if I promise to take care of you, why don't you let me have this?"

Her voice was becoming more and more harsh, her hug becoming tighter with each passing word. She was desperate for something, whatever that was, and you wondered if it was physical, intimate touch or just the attention of someone - attention that was more than admiration.

Your heart cracked at the thought of a young, helpless Beidou scurrying through the streets for food, getting mistreated and yelled at for each breath she took. Did she get nearly as enough love as a child as she said she did?

Did she need this?

"Fine." You sighed, successfully pulling her away from you enough to look into her eyes. "But we're taking this slowly, okay?"

A big smile pulled on her cheeks, stretching her red tinted lips. "Of course."

And with that, she pulled you out of the room of drunken crewmen and towards her own, private bedroom instead.