I'm His Babyboy

Confession

I awoke from a nightmare. I looked over at my phone and saw that it was twelve-thirty at night. I sighed and got out of bed. I walked to the bathroom and locked the door, keeping the light off. My eyes slowly adjusted to the darkness and I looked into the mirror. Seeing every flaw. Tears flooded my eyes.

"What's so perfect about you?"

I asked myself, pulling at my arms and belly.

"What does he see that I don't?"

I pulled out a knife whimpering.

'Do I really wanna be here right now?'

'Is he just a figment of my imagination?'

'Am I asleep and this is just a long dream?'

I put the blade to my arms and pressed it down into my skin.

"Just a few.."

'One...two...three...'

Blood ran down my arm. I lay in the bath and watched it. The crimson liquid oozed out. I felt numb from all the pain. I Got up and cleaned up the wound. Wrapping gauze around it. Tight, but not too tight. I then put on a black sweater and laid back down in bed. I pulled off one side exposing my shoulder and slowly drifted back to sleep. It must've been about six hours later. When I woke up and saw that Justin was nowhere to be seen.

"Baby? You here?"

"I'm in the kitchen."

I smiled. I then got up and made sure the bandages were hidden. I put on some pants and fixed my sweater. Making sure some of my collarbone was showing. I walked out with a big smile on my face and walked over to him.

"How'd you sleep Babyboy?"

"Had a small nightmare but I slept pretty well. How about you?"

"I slept alright I guess."

"You guess?"

"Yea, I umm. I had a nightmare too."

"May I ask what happened?"

"How about you show me what happened.."

"What?"

"Show me your wrist."

"I cant. You'll hit me."

"Ethan. The only time I have ever hit you, was when I was spanking you and you enjoyed it."

"I know."

"Then show me."

"Okay.."

I rolled up my sleeve and started crying. He pulled me close and hugged me tightly.

"Promise me that you will NEVER do that again."

"I promise."

He didn't even want to ask why I did it. He rubbed my back and kissed me. He kept me close and didn't let me go at all. He played with my hair and started humming. He then walked over to the couch and patted his lap.

"Come here Babyboy."

I walked over to him and climbed into his lap. I whimpered a little but I felt safe in his arms.