I'm His Babyboy

Relapse

I've been trying hard to hide what I've desired and what I've been thinking. I dont want Daddy to worry about me. He has enough to worry about. I haven't been eating as much anymore and I can't sleep at night. I don't know exactly what's been going on but I don't like it one bit. Then it hit me. A fucking relapse! I poked my head out of our room and looked around. No one in sight. I then ran to my garden. It's grown a little bigger. The tree's grown beautifully and the flowers are in bloom. I went to some lilac and laid down. The calming scent filled my nose.

"I just need to relax, take a break from reality."

I suddenly felt myself slip into a smaller space. I then curled up and fell fast asleep in the beautiful flowers.

I was in my dreamworld. Everything looked normal but something was wrong, very wrong. I looked around for buttercup, she usually met me here. Where is she? Could she be angry with me?

"Buttercup? Here girl, I'm sorry if I upset you! Where are you beautiful??"

I then heard her crying. I ran toward her and froze.

"Oh my god!"

I ran to her aid. Blood poured out of many cuts and a big gaping wound was on her once soft tummy. Tears flooded my eyes and I fell to my knees. I placed my head on her face and gently petted her head.

"Who did this to you..?"

She was breathing hard. Almost like she had one lung. I looked in her eyes and saw that they were glazed over like cut glass. She's dying.I saw tears run down her face as I held her, trying to offer some sort of comfort.

"I'm so sorry. I wanna heal you. I want you to be all better."

She let out a soft whinny and licked my cheek. She then laid her head down and took her final breath.

"Goodbye Buttercup, I'm gonna miss you so much."

More tears fell down my face. She stopped breathing. I curled up crying. Then I ran over to the cove. I looked around and saw that it was...night? I walked to where the waters edge normally was and saw there was no water. Panic then filled my mind. I ran to where the cave was and saw that the candles were burning low, making a dim light. Then I saw him.

"Daddy?"

No answer. I grabbed a metal can with a burning candle in it and brought it closer to him. He was laying on the ground. A complete skeleton. From the tip of his once beautiful tail to his skull. His jaw was sitting in what would've been his lap.

"Why didn't you change?"

I fell to my knees and cried over him. I never wanted to see him like this. I didn't wanna see anyone like this. They don't deserve it.

""Babyboy? Where are you?!"

I'm so sorry."

Suddenly, everything started to fade and Justin's voice started to pierce through the darkness.

He seemed panicked. I even started to panic. I couldn't let him see me like this. I then ran and hid near my roses. I then pulled out a silver razor and placed it on my wrist but then started thinking. I then looked at the rips in my jeans and placed the cold metal on my leg.

"I'm sorry Daddy."

Tears flooded down my face as I bit down on my hand to keep myself silent. I then pressed down hard and started to pull. Tears fell faster and the blood ran down my leg. I let out a muffled scream as the pain ran through me like a lightning bolt. My eyes rolled to the back of my head and my back arched. I bit down on my hand harder and screamed into it, almost like it would help mute me. The hand that clutched the razor started shaking, causing more damage and pain. I then dropped the razor and passed out. The last thing I saw was my roses.