WILL YOU MEND MY BROKEN SOUL??

SOMETHING'S MISSING!!

Karann...Debattama called on top of her voice from balcony.

But Karanvir left without turning back as if he didn't heard or maybe didn't wanted to.

Kamaal haii itni baar bulaya lekin koii jawab hi ni.. Hadd hoti haii!!!

Debattama frustratedly opened her notification bar to see if he has replied to her text which she sent last night but got same response virtually too... Ignored!!

This has turned into a routine from past two days... After what happened that night Karanvir decided to maintain a decent distance with her to avoid any awkwardness between them and on the other side Debattama was actually seeking chance to explain herself to him but he didn't gave her that.
It wasn't that he was ignoring her fully but the bond they shared...this was definitely weird.
He did used to reply to her greetings and other formal conversations were still there but the friendly bond between them was falling apart...most of the time he was avoiding her.

Debattama tried keeping herself busy by reading articles as was joining office again and Ofcourse to not think much about him but the fact that she did hurted him wasn't letting her indulged in other things as deep down she knew that Karanvir is letting himself responsible for what happened between them though she wanted that it's just she had other reasons to which were stopping her to move on and was hesitant to tell Karanvir about it.

So this morning Debattama decided to leave things their way and to not disturb Karanvir again so chose to go outside as Ms. Sharma was also suggesting for a fresh mind.

But there Debattama was sitting with her boredom on park bench staring the surroundings and doing nothing.

Heyy Bhagwan Karan se bhaagke yaha aayii aur yaha bhi unhe hi imagine kar rahi hu... Kya karu??
Ek baat to samajh aa gayi mujhe there's no way I could keep my mind off him.
He's always there in my consciousness... Ufff!!!
Aur ek vo janab hai jinhe koii farak hi nahii pad raha.
Ye dekhoo message seen karke bhaag gaye..  Iske liye bhi alag se saza honi chahiye constitution mein... Seenzone karke chhod diya!!

Debattama was blabbering to herself when someone patted her on shoulder and the moment she turned around her anxiousness got much higher.

A.. Aap??
She just managed to gabble that out.

Kyuu kisi aur ko expect kar rahi thi aap, he taunted her taking a seat beside without asking her.

Ni matlab aap to office gaye the na??
She was confused though.

Haa lekin mann ni lag raha tha vaha to thoda fresh air lene aa gaya, he told giving all his attention to the people passing by and as usual by ignoring Debattama.

For the next five minutes they just stared the people around and stole glances of each other convincing themselves that the other person isn't noticing it.

I hope you're done ignoring me now, Karanvir initiated the conversation though was sarcastic.

Mein... She didn't take that well though.

Nii vo saamne ped par kabootar baitha hai na vo, Karanvir pointed his finger infront.

To jake usise baat kar lijiye,Debattama annoyingly got up to leave but her wrists got caught by Karanvir's hands immediately making her sit down again.

Kya haii aapko... Baat bhi ni karni, jaane bhi ni dena,Debattama asked frustratedly.

Aapse aisa kisne kaha, Karanvir got confused.

Kya kisne kaha??
Debattama again confused him.

Ki aasman mein 121588720 stars hein,Karanvir taunted her.

Aap koii cheez sahi tareeke se ni keh sakte kya, she turned towards him questioningly.

Tum samajhti ho???
He was annoyed.

Dekhiye... Ye jalebi ki tarah baatein gol gol mat ghumaiye aur kahiye kya kehna chahte hein aap, she ordered him this time.

Mein aapko avoid nahii kar raha tha, he just clarified and turned his head sideways.

To do din se aap sleepwalk kar rahe the jo merii aawaz sunayii ni deti thii, she asked annoyingly.

Mein to aapki khushi ke liye kar raha tha so that you won't feel awkward,he explained her.

Mein kyu awkward feel karne lagii galti to merii thii Right???
To mere paas aake mujhe sunate what's with this assumptions Mr. Karanvir Sharma???
Debattama lost her calm hearing that.

Galtii... Konsi galti Mishti??
I crossed my boundaries...knowing that you don't feel the same way I do I should've controlled myself but me being me took your humanely gestures as something else, Karanvir face palmed himself to avoid further embarrassment.

Karannn....Debattama carefully removed his hands from face and turned his face towards her to have one on one conversation.

Aisa kuch bhi ni haii jesa aap soch rahe ho...It happened cause I let that and it stopped that way cause of some other reason which I didn't know how to reveal,she got hesitant towards the end.

Kya matlab???
Before this complicated thing we had a mutual bond right??
Not exactly like friends but we actually used to pour our heart out to each other cause we had no bond so no chance of getting judged and you're hesitant this time of revealing your insecurities....that maybe are related to me, he suppressed her knuckles to comfort her and at the same time was frustrated too which confused Debattama how to initiate her doubts.

I'm Sorry Karan I didn't mean to hurt you.. It's just that.... Welll...
Whatever happened in my past haunts me everytime,and same happened the moment you were close to me... The moment you kissed me the first time this happened and again two days ago!!!
I'm trying to get over it and emotionally maybe I did that too but mentally those instances aren't letting me move on... And after connecting the dots I realised I'm not comfortable with physical intimacy and the worst part is I don't know how long will it take for me to trust someone so deeply to get that close to and Bitter truth of society is Marriage is somehow permission to have....Sex!!
When you even hug me It takes a moment for me to realise that it's Okayy So how can I trap you in my insecurities,my traumas,my emotional baggages, tears rolled down her eyes pouring out all her issues out.

He knelt down,tucked her hairs behind ears, wiping her tears, cupping her face and just holded her hand giving her the time to calm down first.

Taking a deep breath he held up her chin making her look towards him...
Do you really think physical relationship matters this much in a relationship...I mean Ofcourse it is a part of a beautiful relationship cause it connects two people by their souls...you know it strengthens their bond but it isn't necessary Ms. Debattama Saha and in my case definitely not!!!
I believe in having a walk with holding hands of my partner in moonlight,by taking them in an embrace when needed, by being there for them... And I expect the same from my partner too!!

Debattama just stared at him sacredly and tried convincing herself that such guys do exist.

But you judged me and I didn't like it...you should've come to me right away Mishti but you actually degraded our bond, Karanvir was clearly disappointed and without uttering any word he left.

Ek rail ki do patriyo se hein hum... Saath chalte hein per milte nahii💔