WILL YOU MEND MY BROKEN SOUL??

IT'S ALL COMPLICATED

The moment Karanvir left Debattama ran towards her washroom,as all her memories with Karanvir replayed infront of his eyes, she opened the tap and splashed cold water on her face, as tears she had been controlling till now rolled out of her eyes,she splashed more water trying to control the tears as the memories with him kept replaying~ his smile, his innocence, his antics, his touch,his presence,his possessiveness, his protective nature,his fears, his absence, his everything,she was feeling all of it at that moment, she was trying to compose herself but was failing miserably,she closed the tap and sat on the wall, leaning against the wall,as the tears kept flowing from her eyes,as the memories of their confession replayed.

"I love you Stupid Girl" who told you that I feel pity for you... I love you Damn-it....that longingness in his voice, that confidence which is missing from her side... Debattama was stopping herself from the realization,from getting close to Karanvir...what exactly her heart wants!!

Kya karu mein??...she facepalmed herself to stop tears pooling down her eyes.

Unhone aisa kyu kaha ki Alvida keh doo...Ni keh sakti mein aur kyu kahuuu.... Aap kahii ni ja rahe yehi rahoge mere paas, she unknowingly was pouring her heart's desires.

Lekin kis haq se kahu??
Vo pyar karte hein mujhse na jane kyu mein to layak hi ni unke aur mein unse pyar nahii karti... Kar hi nahi sakti!!!

Vo Boss hein mere, usse bhi zyada bhagwan hein mere liye,itna kuch kiya haii mere liye....mein unke kaabil nahii huu, her voice choked.

Suddenly she heard a knock on her door and she cleansed her face before opening.

Aunty Aap, she asked curiously.

Tum theek ho,Ms.Sharma understood seeing her condition.

Yeah... Mujhe kya hoga, Debattama tried covering up.

Come here, Ms. Sharma called her out and made her sit on the couch first.
She then wiped her wet hair and face with towel and ordered the servant to bring some warm milk so that cold doesn't catch her.

Hmm ab bataoo kya hua, she asked accompanying her nearby.

Nii to kuch bhi ni hua Aunty, Debattama wasn't in mood to tell though.

You really think you can hide it from me, she grinned.

This is the same thing I told Karan too that you Guys are adult but not that much to hide things from your mother, she told caressing her face.

Debattama couldn't control herself listening to that one sentence and hugged tighly Ms. Sharma allowing her tears to pool down freely.

Ms. Sharma first allowed her to feel lighter by crying and just rubbed her back and after her sobs were silent she made Debattama look at her.

Ab batao ye sab case ki vajah se haii ya Karan ki,she jumped on point directly.

Debattama averted eye contact and couldn't reply her back.

Samajh gayii!!!
Karan ne kuch kiya, batao mujhe kya kiya aane do acchi class lungi uski, she told.

Aree Nii Aunty unhone kuch nahii kiya vo to itne acche hein, vo kabhi kuch galat ni kar sakte, Debattama tried defending him.

Ms. Sharma smiled seeing Debattama's defence and asked "Agar vo itne acche hein to tumhe acche kyu nahii lagte" leaving Debattama clueless.

Aisi baat nahii haii Aunty mujhe vo acche kyu ni lagenge, she was playing safe.

To problem kya haii... Use tum pasand ho tumhe vo pasand haii fir tum dono hi takleef mein kyu ho??
She asked.

Kyuki vo mujhse pyar karte hein aur mein.... She stopped in between.

Aur tum, Ms. Sharma asked her to complete.

Mein... Vo... Vo... Mein, Debattama couldn't collect words to frame properly.

Aur tum usse pyar nahii karti yehii na, Ms. Sharma gave benefit of doubt.

Debattama bowed her head down hesitantly.

To use keh do jaake ki tum uske liye aisa kuch feel nahi karti, Ms. Sharma gave her an option.

Lekin mein ye kese keh du, Debattama asked in confusion.

Hm to ab samajh aaya!!
Tum khud hi confused ho ki tumhari uske liye feelings actually mein hein kya, Right??
She got right nerve this time when Debattama nodded in Yes.

Matlab aapke saath bhi game khelna padega... Kya bacche mile hein mujhe khudse kuch samjhna hi nahii haii, Ms. Sharma patted her head in disappointment.

Accha let's play a game I'll say few words and you'll answer the first word that comes to your mind listening to that instantly...No cheating,she instructed Debattama and Debattama in confusion nodded.

--Khushii!!

--Family:)

--Ummm Family??

--Duniya!!

--Duniya??

--Sukoon...

---Ohh Dosti??

--Pyar:)

--Accha Pyar??

--Karan Sir... And her tongue stopped in that moment realising what she just said and all she could do was look at Ms. Sharma to understand what just happened.

Ms. Sharma smiled and gave her See I told you look.

Ye... Ye kese Mtlb,Debattama wasn't able to accept what she just did.

Ye kese matlab... Jo dil mein tha vo zubaan par aa gaya,Ms.Sharma tried being innocent.

Lekin mein aur Karan Sir kese, vo mere Boss hein????

To konsi rulebook mein likha haii ki Boss aur Employee saath nahi ho sakte... Tum dono ekdum same ho, Doubts bhi same hi aate hein dimag mein....Vo kya kehte hein teenagers aajkal hashtag Couple Goals, she did the action.

Par mein unke kaabil nahi hu Aunty... Pehle bhi nahii thi vo itne rich aur mein ek middle class ladki aur ab after this incident as a partner bhi nahi hu, she poured out her insecurities.

Aur tumse aisa kisne kaha??
Tumhari problem hi ye haii ki tum sochti Zyada ho....tumhare andar kya quality haii vo Use pata haii jo use pasand aayii...infact tumhare saath hue is incident ne hi use ye realise karvaya ki tum uske liya kya ho!!
To tum is incident ki vajah se uske layak kese ni huii,koii logic haii tumhari baat ka, Ms. Sharma shook her head in disbelief.

Kabhi Kabhi apne aur doosro ke liye bhi hume selfish hona padta haii and jo cheez tumhari haii uspar haq jatana seekho na ki khudko underestimate karna, saying this Ms. Sharma left clearing all the doubts from Debattama's mind.

Aaj jaakar ishq ko samajh paayi hu mein... Kal tak ehsaso mein uljhi thii aaj Jazbaato ko samajh paayi hu mein....Shayd kal tak zinda thi aaj jeene ki vajah samajh payi hu mein...