*****Kaela's Point Of View*****
Whenever those words slipped my lips I knew I had made a mistake. Sometimes I really didn't think before I spoke up, they just seemed to bubble over my lips before I could stop them. Billie had a shy smile on his face as I claimed him as mine, and now I felt bad. For I fact, I could tell I had hurt Jimmy with those words, he supposivly "loved" me. But if he "loved" me he wouldn't be sleepin' around with random chicks, and ditchng me now would he?
I did like Billie though, and I did want him to be mine. Was it time though? Yea you might be wonderin' to yourself,
"Gee you already slept with him, why the hell not?"
Well thats the thing. I don't know. Yea I kinda' did the wrong thing when I slept with him, I gave up my virginity to a total stranger it seemed. I wanted to be with him though, and if he wanted to be with me then so be it. I just didn't want anyone hurt in the end.
I bit my lip hard before speaking, "You don't mind driving me home do you? I kinda' let that slip..."
"Depends...Do you wanna' go home?" He questioned, staring deeply into my eyes.
"Uhm..."
"Yea I figured you'd say that. Your not happy there, are you?" He purred, not wanting anyone but me to hear him.
"No, I don't see the point in living whenever I stay there all by myself, day in, and day out," I confessed, looking at my feet in shame.
"Run away, stay here, I'll give you everything you need, and more." He pleaded, his eyes big and bright.
Tough decision to make. I know my mom loves me, yes, and I wasn't the selfish type to put her though the hell she's put me though my whole life. I couldn't do that to Jimmy either, no matter how much of a jackass he is.
"How about you come with me, live in Huntington for a year, then I'll move out."I bargained, making him think.
"That doesn't sound bad. I needa' settle down, and take a break for awhile anyways. It makes me tired to do all this performing, and song writing. I always have to be doing something for my band, I never have alone time. If I do have alone time, I have to sleep cause' I'm so tired." He agreed, nodding.
"The boyfriend thing..."I trailed off, dropping the smile off his face.
"What bout' it?" He asked, his face having a mixture of hurt and confusion on it.
"Well...I just said that because I'm upset. Yea, one day lets take this relationship to the next level. Not now, I don't want to hurt him with someone I just met." I explained, squeezing his hands in mine.
"So...It could happen?" He smiled, knowing how to make everything seem okay.
"Yea, pretty much. We just need time to know each other, time to begin a relationship if ya know what I mean."
He smiled, without warning, pulled my face so near his that I could smell his addictive scent that drove me off the wall. He smelt of some kind of sweet colounge, much better than any I have ever smelled before I met him.
"I have all the time in the world." He wispered, his big, warm hands cupping my face.
"You'd waste it all on me?" I wondered, disbelief covering my tone in a thick veil.
"Every single second, if thats what it takes." He went on, making me smile such a big smile it hurt.
I stared up at him, into his bright green eyes, underneath my eyelashes. He was so tempting, to risk everything with, to do it all with, to lose everything with. But I couldn't throw my life away, I couldn't.
