You cared so long for people that you thought they would have been by your side always and forever, make them a priority, feeling guilty if they wouldn't been fine, and the worst is that you lost yourself. Lost yourself in caring and helping other people. You were so loyal, to them, doing the best you could do for them to be in a good mood, always tried to make everyone satisfied, but the sad part is that they don t care as much as you do. Maybe they doesn t care at all, but is hard to recognize, and you don t want to admit, so you ignored it even if your mind is telling you that they don t deserve all the things you do for them, but you don t listen, because you loved them right? and between the love and the caring you felt this is not the only reasons for helping them, you also do it for yourself, because you think if i can t help and solve myself my own problems, maybe i will be better at solving and helping others.
You do it because it helps you to not feel uselees. You are such a great person with great advices for others, but can t help yourself, so you put others first and forget about yourself and your feelings, avoiding to think about your problems because you are not capable to help yourself.
Thinking about other peoples lives and problems and make them a priority is an escape from your own problems.
