The Difference Between Spring and Winter

The hard part

I wasn't going to be able to come in on Friday because I wouldn't have a way to get there plus I still had to go to school. I could've stayed home but my mom and I thought I should at least try to go to give me a bit of a distraction.

It had worked out though because when I went back to see him on Saturday he told me his dad had come to see him. It had surprised me since his dad had left a couple of years ago, but I guess somehow he heard about what was happening and decided he had to come back and see Noah.

Noah told me that he and his dad had had a really emotional conversation about why he left. I think it created some peace between the two of them the way Noah made it sound. He said that his dad had brought his iPad with him and they had watched Iron Man. This was really sweet because like I mentioned Marvel movies were something Noah and his dad had shared since he was just a kid. Iron man was Noah's favorite so it's nice that they watched that one. Its good that his dad had com back to see Noah because about a week later he passed away.

I didn't know much about cancer before all of this, but I'm pretty sure that it wasn't all supposed to be this fast. The doctors had said that this was unusual but that with things like cancer we didn't fully understand it so anything could happen.

I was with him when it happened. He didn't seem to be in pain. But then again he was always good at hiding it with me. He had looked so tired and had fallen asleep. When you're in the hospital you tend to sleep a lot. Partly because you are sick but also because what else is there to do. It's just that most of the time when you sleep it isn't forever

obviously when someone dies, especially someone that you care deeply for it's going to be upsetting. But I knew he was in a better place, and he had probably been uncomfortable for a while so now he was going to be at peace.

I whispered to him I love you one last time and just sat there for a while. Eventually, mom came and told me I needed to leave now. She helped me up out of the chair and guided me out of the room. As you would expect I was kind of a mess, I mean what else is supposed to happen when you lose your boyfriend, and one of the best friends you ever had.