See you soon ~ Book 1 Natasha RomanoffxReader

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⚠️LIME/STEAMY⚠️

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I heard running water. I felt warm. I realize I'm in a bed. I try to sit up, I seethe with pain I fall back on the bed. I look around and saw grey walls.

No.. No... I can't be there... I move back until my body hits a headboard. I gasp and touch it. It was wood, I look around and see it's bedroom. Just a normal bedroom. Wait... this is the bedroom from Clint's farm. I look around and see the bathroom door cracked. I hear water turn off and movement. Is that Natasha? No! Wait! I don't know! I wasn't wearing my suit. Just some shorts and a larger shirt.

I slowly open the drawer of the side table. And sure enough there was a gun. I hear the door creek open and I take the gun and lift it, finger on the trigger.

Natasha...

I take a couple breaths. " Hey... It's okay. It's me." Natasha says stepping closer. Despite taking a shower she looked shaken and tired. I wanted to hug her, kiss her, just tell her everything I felt. But every time I went to talk it was just another breath. Natasha stands there. I could feel tears, I wanted to cry.

I let the gun slip from my fingers onto the floor. " Наташа, ты мне нужна. Мне нужно, чтобы ты держал меня. Мне нужно знать, что ты настоящий ( Natasha, I need you. I need you to hold me. I need to know you're real)" My sight was blurred by tears. I felt her pull me close and I let myself cry. Actually cry. I felt Natasha's arms around me.

I held my arms tightly around her waist. She was real. I don't care how much my body hurts right now. I just let myself sob. My body shook from my cries. I felt her warmth, words can't describe my emotions. I was scared but now that she was here, now she is in my arms, now I know I'm safe.

Slowly my sobs vary. Now just careful breaths. My tight grip loosens and my hands rest on her hips. " Are you alright?" I manage to say. " Nothing I haven't already felt." She sighs. I look up. " I don't believe that. Whatever that was- Neither of us have felt that. Tell me the truth." I say my eyes fixed on hers. She closes her eyes " I don't want to relive that again... I felt nothing but panic...I saw the Red Room and you."

I pull her close to me and lay on the bed. She laid her head on my shoulder and her leg tangled with mine. She laid her hand on me and I wrapped my arms around her. " I thought I would never have to go back... After Dreykov's death I thought that was the end of it." I listen and look at her hair, somewhat dry and slightly frizzy. 

" I thought I was finally free... But when Shield Turned out to be Hydra... I lost the one place that felt like home." I lean my head in hers and draw random shapes on her thigh. " When I got out I had a dream. To be a hero, an Avenger, If you were alive find you and just... Live happily." She laughs slightly. "And pretend I'm not the assassin of their creation." I shake my head " Natasha, you are so much more. You saved my life, you gave me a home, I only can repay that with my heart, which you already had." I kiss her head, I wish I could take away her pain. Her baggage. Carry it myself if needed.

" I should never had brought you into this Lia, I should have taken you to a house. Or an apartment, someplace where we can just be."

" It wouldn't have done any good. If you were needed Clint could probably contact you somehow." I say playing with a stand of her hair in my fingers. " Maybe. But maybe we should still try." Natasha says lifting her head and looks at me.  I tilt my head. She sits up " Lia, we can go wherever we want. We can disappear, have the life we want." She smiles slightly. I shake my head " I can't do that. I can't give you this life." I look at her. " Lia, I only need you. And when it's safe we can worry about the smaller details." She says .

" And where can we go where I am not a Threat, or a Target. Where can we go that is safe for us?" I ask in a soft-like voice. " You're not a threat to me, and we can protect each other." She protests. " Do you really want that kind of a life with me?" I ask just above a whisper. Natasha takes my chin softly in her hand. " When are you going to understand? I love you, My life is not complete without you. I could care less where we are. As long and you are by my side. You're mine, anyone who wants to try and take you from me won't succeed." She kisses my forehead.

" Do you understand, that I am not leaving you?" She kisses my cheek. My eyes flutter close. " That I only need you to be happy?" She kisses my other cheek. Then she finally kisses my lips. " Or are you more of a tactical learner, малышка? (Baby Girl)" She pulls away from me and stands in front of me. She slowly takes off her robe.

Just when I thought she ran out of ways to leave me breathless, she did it again. I study her body, her scars, some light bruises, her curves that fit so well in my hands, her soft skin. She was perfect in every way. I look at her with a hunger. " Sometimes I hate the way you make me feel." I try to sit up but Natasha puts her hand on me.

" No, no. You're supposed to be resting. And I'm in the shower." She says sliding her hand under my shirt. Her hand was slightly cold, and she rested it on my stomach. I take a breath " What about everyone else? There's still people here." I lay my head back. " The door is locked, You're resting, and I'm in the shower. As long as we are quiet and I take my time, no one will suspect anything." She says kissing my neck. My hand subconsciously makes it's way to her side. She takes her hand and guides mine up her side then over my heads

She laughs and whispers in my ear. " You're resting remember?" I close my eyes. She kept her hands on me and straddled me. She kissed me slowly. " And I'm taking a very.." she kissed my jaw. " Very..." she kisses the other side of my jaw. " Long shower." She finishes kissing my neck.

She kisses my color bone and all the way to the center of my chest. She slides her hand down my arm and to my neck.

She laughs. " After what you did you me, I'm not surprised." I look back and her hair was a mess and her face was tear stained. And there was a huge blood stain on her stomach. Her blood soaked my hands.

My eyes shoot open and I take Natasha's hand away. " Stop, I can't do this now." I slowly sit up. " What's wrong Lia?" She asks. I shake my head " We can't do this right now, We shouldn't." I say again starring into her eyes. " Why?" She asks. " I just need to relax. Last time this happened I saw something bad and I don't want to think of that when I'm with you." I say caressing her cheek.

She nods and stands up. She walks over to a dresser. " Okay... Promise you'll talk to me about it when you're ready." She says pulling a shirt over her head .

I nod, I know she was hurt but I know she understands. I carefully stand and walk to her.  I turn her around and I kiss her softly " I love you, I don't question your love for me." I whisper to her. I saw her eyes light up slightly and a small smile.

" And we will find that house. When all of this is over we will find that perfect place for us." I say scanning her eyes. I went to kiss her again when the door opened. " Hey Natasha- Oh uh." Clint says. There was a moment of awkward silence. " I was gonna ask if you guys are okay, but uh... I guess I got my answer." He nods to himself.

" Carry on then, I'll be downstairs." Clint closes the door and I hear him walk away. I look at Natasha " I thought you said the door was locked?". " I guess it slipped my mind." She smiles. I laugh quietly.

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A/N: I hope you liked this chapter! It has taken forever for me to write it for some reason. Hope you have a great day/night!