To Heal or to Kill a Sanegiyuu Story

Chapter 15

(curse warning)

Giyuu's POV
“I was probably going to kill myself eventually anyways so if you killed me… then you would be doing me a favor. My existence is a burden.”

He seemed upset at me for saying that but then he stopped and put his hand on his chin. He looked like he was thinking of something. Then he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me closer to him, we were inches apart. His hot breath clashing against mine.

“Run away with me. Don’t fucking stay here with that pathetic father of yours. Let’s go somewhere where no one will recognise you, and then you can live a peaceful life. Well we would be poor and low lives but… who the fuck cares!?”

My eyes sparkled and I hugged him, and nodded my head. I want to run away and running away with him seems like the best option. I almost started crying but he pulled away and we started talking about a plan to run away. 
Time passed and I had Sanemi leave the room. After an hour or so then I snuck out of the room and slowly made it back to the ball. I was noticed by my sister after ten minutes since I made it back. She told me that our father was upset and wanted to chat with me. I really wanted to sigh and roll my eyes but a girl grabbed my arm and started talking to me.

“Hello Prince Giyuu! You aren’t trying to ignore me are you?”

Ugh, princess Shinobu. She is a friend of mine but is very annoying like a fly. Many compare her to a butterfly though. My father loves her and hopes that she will be my bride, which disgusts me. I see her as a sister in a way or an annoying cousin.
(You can ship Giyuu and Shinobu I don’t mind, just in this fanfic they aren’t shipped. I don’t ship it personally but I don’t mind if anyone else does!)
She held onto my arm for a while and my father walked up to us. I could tell he wanted to have a long talk but he saw Shinobu and hid his angered face. He put on a fake smile and talked to her. I really wanted to get out of here and go to my room or the garden. Thankfully I have a really good poker face, looking stone cold. After a bit my father mentioned to me having to find a bride. He then nodded his head to Shinobu who was still attached to me like a parasite. I almost rolled my eyes and Shinobu spoke up and was able to quickly change the subject. Good, she doesn’t want to marry me either. She most likely also doesn’t want to have to carry my future kids.
After a bit she went to talk with some others, probably Rengoku and my sister. I was lucky that my father can’t talk to me right now because of the ball. I just walked around and waited for the ball to be over. Once it finally finished I went straight to my room and got ready for bed. Tomorrow my father will have his talk with me, which I am not looking forward to. Yet tomorrow night I am escaping and going to live a life out there, somewhere, with Sanemi. Then we could really get to know each other. I wouldn’t have to marry some women and be forced to have kids. I paced around my room for a little bit and slowly calmed myself down. I need to be ready for tomorrow night. I then got some things ready for the plan and hid the stuff under my king sized bed.
I turned off the lights and laid down on my bed. I closed my eyes and thought of my better future. A future with Sanemi… What will that be like? Poor and probably a bit dirty but fun and more fulfilling. We would be living together and most likely sharing a room. Sharing a room, would we share a bed too? My face heated up but I couldn’t help thinking of us snuggling and… Kissing yeah kissing. Oh.. what would it be like to kiss Sanemi? My mind wandered on and on, it took me forever to fall asleep. I was woken up by my maids and was forced to take a bath before I do anything today. After the bath I was dressed and went to the throne room for a long talk. I walked in and he seemed very angry.“Why did you dance with your old doctor? Everyone was watching and gossiping about you the whole time! What about focusing on getting a wife! You are such a big fucking brat!”

He then called me over and I slowly walked over and he slapped me in the face. I really was not expecting that. My face felt on fire, he hit me pretty hard. Then Shinobu walked in and looked at me, her expression was full of surprise. My father seemed speechless, he for once didn’t know what to say so I took the opportunity to excuse myself and she followed after me.

“What just happened!?”

I stayed quiet and kept walking. She then grabbed me by my shoulders and forcibly turned me to face her. I sighed and talked quietly.

“He wasn’t happy about the whole dance situation yesterday. As you can tell…”

She was still shocked but nodded her head. Then she mentioned about me and my wife's situation. I quickly said that I would find one and left it at that. I don’t need her getting in the way of my freedom. I made my way to my room, and she thankfully stopped following me. I looked in my mirror and saw my bright red cheek. He did hit me for the first time, I touched it and slightly winced.