Emotional Rainbow

Fanboy

It's finally the end of the school day. I slowly start to get my stuff together to leave. As I stand up, Shitty Hair walks over to my desk.

"Hey, Bakubro," he starts. "Denki is having us over to play video games. Wanna come?"

"Can't." I answer rather gruffly. "I'm talking to Deku after dinner. I need to be calm for that, so I'm going to just chill by myself for a bit." I glance up to see the disappointment on his face. "I'll see you at dinner." I quickly add, not wanting him to be too upset.

At that, his smile quickly returned. "Sure man, see you later." He turned and walked back over to Denki and Sero. They all went to walk out the door but Denki made sure to give me a wink before leaving.

I rolled my eyes at him and then turned towards where Mina was standing. She gives me a smile and whispers. "I'll stop by in an hour."

I just nod, grab my stuff, and head to the dorms. As I walk, I go back and forth thinking about Shitty Hair and Deku. I know what I need to say to Deku, I just have to swallow my pride to say it. Then there's how I feel about Shitty Hair and how he feels about me and I'm so nervous. Why do these emotions have to be so dam difficult. I almost want to go back to just being angry all the time. Almost.

Once in my room, I get changed and put my stuff away. Shortly after, there's a small knock at my door. "It's open" I say loud enough for Mina to hear.

"How do you feel about getting wet?" She walks in asking.

"There's a weird ass question?" I respond.

She rolls her eyes at me. "Ok, well hear me out first. What about going to the beach with Kiri tomorrow afternoon. Hang out for a while there. While you're gone, I'll set up a rooftop dinner for you two so you can confess to him under the stars tomorrow night."

A small smile comes across my face. "That is so fucking cheesy. He'll love it."

She squeals."I'm so excited for the both of you. By the way, did you see him writing your name over and over during class? He's got it bad for you!"

I turn away from her so she can't see my face as I feel it get warm. I'm blushing. I'm actually fucking blushing. "So apparently, he's liked me since first year. Denki said he didn't know if I liked guys so he didn't say anything."

"Awww! That's so sweet." She says. "I'm just so glad that this is all working out and that you're almost finished with this emotion quirk."

"You have no idea." I say as I turn back to look at her. Then much more quietly, "Thanks for helping with this."

Her whole face lights up. "Anything for my big brother." She turns to leave. "See you at dinner." She calls over her shoulder as she walks out.

I decide that I need some time to just chill, so I get out my headphones and put on some music. I lay on my bed, hit shuffle, and just listen. I don't think about anything but the words of each song as they play. It helps me to relax and next thing I know, it's dinner time.

I turn off my music and head down to dinner. I grab some spicy curry and look around. The squad is already seated and my heart jumps when Shitty Hair looks up at me with his brighter than the sun smile.

"Hey, Bakugo!" He calls out, waving me over to sit with him.

I sit down and start eating my meal. Only a few more hours, I tell myself. Then I get to finally tell him how I feel. But first, Deku.

Once we're all done and have cleaned up our messes, we start to head to the common area. We walk in and I see Deku sitting on one of the couches with his friends. He looks nervous as he glances my way. I nod my head towards the elevator letting him know I'm ready to talk. His eyes widen and then he nods back.

I turn to Shitty Hair. "I gotta go talk with Deku. Then I'm going to bed. Meet me at the front entrance tomorrow at noon. We're going to the beach, just you and me." I turn to walk away but not before I see the look of pure joy in his eyes at what I told him.

"Oh wow, rrreally. I-I can't wait." He stutters out. "Um, I'll see you tomorrow."

I smile to myself as I head to Deku's room. At least I have something to look forward to after what's about to happen.

As I walk down the hall, Deku is standing at his door waiting for me. "H-hey, Kacchan. Come on in."

We walk in and I try to suppress a chuckle at the amount of AllMight stuff he has. "Still a fanboy, I see."

He just shrugged his shoulders and nods.

"Alright, let's get this over with." I start. "I have a lot to say, and it would be best if you just let me say it all before you respond." I quickly make eye contact and then look down to the ground before continuing. "Deku, I've know you since we were kids. I know I was an ass. Still am sometimes. The reason is that I'm jealous of you. I envy the way everyone likes you. How you always have a positive attitude. The fact that you want to be a hero to help people, no matter if you get any glory or recognition. You inspire everyone around you. Even me, although I will never admit that out loud again. I'm sorry that I have such a hard time being a friend to you and I don't know if I'll ever be able to get past this. Just know, that even if I don't show it, I will always be one of your biggest fans."

I finish talking but can't quite bring myself to look up. The room is completely silent and neither of us move. Then without warning, I'm being pulled into an embrace.

"Thank you, Kacchan." He whispers. "I know that was hard for you to say." He pauses and then takes a step back. "Your hair changed back so I know it's the truth. You need to know that I feel the same way about you. I've always admired your strength and the way you never worry about what other people think." He then kind of huffs out a laugh. "I look forward to buying some of your merchandise so I can fanboy over you too."

I can't help but roll my eyes at him. "Never change, Deku. Also don't tell anyone what I said. I had to say it due to the quirk. Doesn't mean I'm actually ready to change." I look up at him. "Yet." I add. I then turn to leave.

"Sure thing, Kacchan." He says as he walks me to his door. "I'll be here waiting whenever you're ready."

I walk back to my room. Maybe sharing my feelings isn't as bad as I first thought it would be. I actually feel stronger in some ways. Knowing that what I say can make others feel good is actually empowering. Fuck, I really have gone soft. I lay down to go to sleep. All I can think is...

I can't wait til tomorrow.