-- ❝ dear jungwon & eunwoo, it's not looking good. and by it, I don't remember what love is anymore ❞
and so a lonely death may not be that bad, if you know who's watching.
𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘁𝘂𝘀 : COMPLETED.
𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁 : 22/02/22
𝗲𝗻𝗱 : 23/04...
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As I back up after realizing what shit I have done to my girlfriend made I lose my tongue.
Just standing up there in front of her watching as she tries to get her arm up. I physically destroyed it.
All I see is that the left arm is covered in blood. Oh yeah and both of her hands as she can't believe what is happening to her arm.
I then looked at my hand which was full of my girlfriends' blood. I don't know why but I started to panic.
What the fuck. What was I doing? That all brings back to my fucking shitty childhood.
Flashback
Just me staring at my mom getting beat up by my father, was the worst thing I've ever seen.
I saw bloodstains on the carpet as I covered my mouth not to make any sound. But I failed.
My dad saw me and stopped, as he left the room leaving my mom alone. She tried to get up to comfort me but ended up falling down again.
I instead rushed to her and got into her arms as I closed my eyes trying to avoid the dirty blood my father have took out from my mom's stomach.
"Mom... mom I'm scared" She again cried and tried to wipe my tears but nothing helped. I was scared of my dad too.
I was scared that he was going to do the same thing to me as well. "Honey. It's all going to be good again, okay? I'm here after all" She tried to give me a smile to hide the pain that it wasn't ever going to be okay.
A month later after my mom got beaten up more than 10 times by my dad, she eventually left me and my dad and never really came back to me again.
That surprised me for a fact. Not the most precious human alive to me, leaving me like this. I've never really talked to my dad after my mom left.
I had so much hate and anger towards him that I tried to hold back not trying to fight him because if I did, he would ruin my life as well.
End of flashback
"WHAT THE FUCK JAY. WHAT IS THE ACTUAL FUCK JAY?" As she yelled at me crying. I was still shocked and tried to process everything that has been happening now.
"DON'T FUCKING YELL. I SWEAR TO GOD DONT ACT INNOCENT YOU-" I didn't want to continue as she hatred my action and behavior to her.
