My Favorite

9- In my bed

Continuing...

"Thank you so much for letting me stay here tonight" She looked at me with her sad puffy eyes. I just want to kiss her cute pink nose. I kept playing with her hair since it's gone silent again. This moment is such a movie scene. We are both laying in my bed facing each other. I know that I could have easily gave up my bed for her but she insisted on being together tonight. Her eyes kept shutting from how tired she must feel. Tonight must have drained her so much with the arguing, crying, and emotions.
I'm just glad she could finally feel somewhat relaxed for now.

As soon as I thought she had fallen asleep, I stopped petting her hair. Now I need to turn off my lamp even though it's in a nightlight setting (dim). But I don't want to move and possibly wake her up. It has a nightlight setting for a reason I guess. I shut my eyes and decided to get some rest also, especially since it's one something in the morning. I don't have to get up early tomorrow but I still like to get up at a decent time to do whatever I need to do before leaving my home.

My body starts to feel heavier each second. A minute or two later I woke up again to the feeling of Silje grabbing my hand. My sleepy eyes fluttered open to meet hers. "Sorry, I just need to hold your hand" she sleepily told me. I smiled softly and interlocked my fingers with hers. "Whatever makes you feel better" I told her before shutting my eyes again. The bed shook a little so I assume she changed positions, but her hand is still holding mine. I opened my eyes curiously and her face is now much closer to mine. Her eyes are closed so I think she just wants to feel my warmth. Seconds later our foreheads touched. She keeps moving closer to me. Our knees are even touching now.

Not to be weird but I'm starting to feel 'tingling' in a certain place . Now I can no longer focus on sleeping. Just having her this close to me, especially with her forehead on mine, makes me want to kiss her. And I just want to cuddle with her too.
I can feel her soft warm breathes hitting my mouth. My mouth like a inch away from hers right now. Wish I was in a different situation with her so that I can just kiss her right here and it'll be okay. I'm hoping to just fall asleep so I can get her lips off of my mind.

"Lina" she whispered to me, waking me out of my half awake thoughts. Her hand moved to my cheek and caressed it softly. "Yeah?" I replied without opening my eyes. My heart is beating so quick right now. I felt her back away a little which made me open my eyes to look at her. We are still very close to each other though. I glanced down at her lips feeling the need to kiss her still. It's not going away and I'm trying to stop myself from doing anything stupid.

"Can I admit something?" She started off, causing me to have butterflies. I nodded softly and kept eye contact with her. "I've been confused with my sexuality for a long while now" she paused. Oh crap, is this really happening right now?
"And this year I came with the term that I'm not straight... I think I'm Bisexual but sometimes I feel like I'm only into women...and I'm sorry for bringing him up again but I think this is one of the reasons on why I haven't been intimate with my boyfriend for a month now" she explained. But I decided to add in my thoughts.

"I get you... I think maybe it can also just be because he wasn't your person. The trust wasn't there anymore. It just didn't feel right... But that's just a thought, I'm not invalidating how you feel". She thought for a moment.
"Yeah you're probably right on that...but honestly he's the only guy I've ever been with, I never wanted to be with another guy again... And it was okay" she laughed. I think I got the hint on what she's referring to at the end.

So does this mean I could possibly have a chance? Well, probably not but at least there's a slight possibility.

"Maybe when you're ready to date again, there will be a girl who you'll really like and who deserves you" I smiled. She giggled. "Think I might have someone in mind already honestly... Been feeling confused about her lately if I'm gonna be honest". Her eyes glanced at my lips making me feel as if she's talking about me.
Stay calm Lina, you don't know that yet.

"That's good to hear, maybe she's what you need" I smiled back at a smiley Silje. She laughed and threw a piece of my curly hair in my face. I furrowed my brows confusedly and laughed with her. "You're clueless but cute" she grabbed my cheek again. "What do you mean" I questioned nervously. "I like you Lina" she admitted. I can see how her breaths are becoming heavier.

This is my moment to finally do it.
I leaned in and smashed my lips onto hers. She kissed me back immediately and passionately. I think this whole time she was craving my lips too. Everything about this moment feels so right. And it weirdly feels familiar.

We finally pulled apart to catch our breathes. This is when I realized that I was practically hovering above her body. My hands on either side of her head are holding my body up. While our chests moved from our heaving breathing, we looked at each other deeply. Guess we are both still processing what just happened between us.
God, I hope she doesn't regret a single thing because I don't.

"I've been waiting to do that". I broke the silence. A smile appeared on her face and so did on mine. That's a sigh of relief. "Wish I have done this sooner" she pulled me down closer to her body and face. "I didn't say anything before but since I first saw you, I couldn't stop thinking about you... And I'll admit, I was so nervous when I was performing in front of you" she laughed. "So you were looking at me!" I excitedly stated. She laughed again and nodded at me. "I just couldn't look away" she bit her bottom lip.
"Same here...I'm so glad I wasn't the only one" I admitted. My eyes kept going back and forth from her eyes to her lips. She did the same to me.

"You're not alone" she paused before speaking again. "Lina, to me, you're two feet above anyone else" she looked at me deeply. My heart started to beat fast. I looked at her with a amazed face of being on the same page as her.  She then grabbed the back of my head to smash her lips onto mine. Still straddling her, I felt her free hand lightly squeeze my thigh a few times. My hips softly pushed against her, rubbing our bodies together. A few soft moans escaped our mouths feeling so in need of each other. The tension is definitely more heated this time but just as pleasurable as the first time. Before things moved too quickly I decided to pull away from her and lay back down next to her. I also just needed to breathe, she's literally taking my breath away.
I sometimes can get overwhelmed easily too.

"Sorry, I got carried away" she nervously chuckled. "No, I did" I laughed nervously.
"I just didn't want to go too far yet Because I want to consider your current mindset and situation" I mentioned. She nodded with a pleased smile. Our hands interlocked again.
"How didn't I find you sooner?".

We finally decided to get some rest before we continue to lose ourselves in each other. We're also very sleepy anyways. The night ended by us cuddling together. Silje as the little spoon if I'm being specific. I think that this is exactly what she's been missing this past month. Just the comfort of someone. I'm so glad I could be here for her. It's like our paths crossed with purpose and with specific timing.
Everything has a reason.

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