I lay on top of my blanket looking up at the ceiling, I can't fall asleep. I keep thinking about the same thing every night and it's driving me insane.
The Monster.
I wish every night that I will just forget.. but I know if I forget about him I will forget about the the light in my mind that kept me happy through out all the evil.
That one light made me not think of death everyday.
Her smile was so sweet, even when The Monster kicked her and spat on her she still kept that beautiful smile on her face.
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I remember one time when I was like 10 I was eating a bowl of plain pasta, and the monster I came up to me and picked me up by my collar. he through my against the wall and said
"Get out off my fucking spot you Cunt." he said pushing my food to the other end. I grab the bowl and head to my room with tears at the brim of my eyes. I had a bruise on my side, but when do I not have bruises.
That was just one of the times The Monster had thrown me at things.
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When I was like 14 I begged my mom to just leave. She just looked at me with her blue eyes
"Soon sweetie soon.."
I didn't understand why she stayed, I would always wonder..
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Now I think as a almost 20 year old that even though the way she died was not clean or happy, she felt piece because she finally escaped...
When she died I felt like she was being selfish and that she just wanted me to live and die in hell hole.
I soon understood that she new I would find a way to get out , even though my plan didn't work out completely the way I wanted. I knew she's happy I got out.
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I end up grabbing my laptop for my bedside and turn it on. I look through my tumblr and finally sleep
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FanfictionMy name is Reina but my dad calls me Slut, Fag, Bitch, Ect He has been a alcoholic since I was 4. I hate him so much. This is my story of me escaping and trying to live a normal life. Well as normal as a 19 year old can be. //just a heads up that t...
