The Dragon Lady

So we're Friends Now? (Chapter 3)

So we’re Friends Now? (Chapter 3)

                I combed my long wavy hair while staring at the mirror in front of me. My mascara was running down my cheeks and my eye’s looked like I came from Hell and back. I looked like a pile of rubbish, but what could I do? I was heartbroken, confused, and most of all alone. Yeah I had my sister’s but it’s different because I know they won’t make any efforts of being friends with me.

          Let’s go back when we were 10, 2 years before it happened. Kat was wearing combat boots and a camouflaged vest with a black shirt under. She obviously was the rebel in the pack. Kat had always said that no matter how she looked she was still Kitty Kat, no matter how far we were, we were always together. I remember that day as if it was yesterday. I had fallen flat on my face in front of my little boy crush, Cameron. I was terrified, being the little dorky 10 year old I was I awkwardly just stood back up and tried smiling, what I didn’t know that I had not only broke my nose but that I had just gotten my period for the first time. Kat being the observing one caught it and had said that she was sorry for dropping her kool aid on my pants. Yeah lame but she saved my sorry butt. I laughed it off and nobody knew what it really was. I thanked her a million times while Ally laughed and said I was really stupid. She later confessed she was jealous because I had gotten my period first. I will never understand girl logic, I hated my period.

          The sound of someone coughing snapped me back to the present. Ally stared at me with her big brown eyes. She pink mouth was locked into a thin line. I finished taking off my makeup and stared right back at her.

          “Ally we have no time for this. Tell me what you want.” I stared down at her small frame. She was currently wearing a loose fit white t-shirt with a denim button up on top of it. She had on her favorite red pants with a pair of golden wedges.

          “How can you do it Lulu? How can you be so brave with all of this? Do you not realize we have no one now? We are by ourselves with some lady we can’t even remember and we are expected to move in with her God knows where?! Do you realize we can’t lean on anyone right now? Do you even care!?” I let Ally rant until I got pissed off. Did she really think I was oblivious to all of this?

          “Are you that retarded? Do you think I haven’t spent all this time thinking about how we can survive this TOGETHER?? Do you seriously think that I’m really that brave? I’m not. Does it bring any type of pleasure knowing that I’m weak and can’t handle shit? Does it?! Tell me do you like knowing I can’t handle this all by myself? We don’t have time to be moping and sulking. It’s a part of growing up.” I yelled right back at her. Sometimes I really doubted she even thought about anyone else but her. I hope that one day she gets up from her bed and realize that everybody doesn’t live to please her. She shut up and stared at me with watery eyes. It truly broke my heart seeing how broken she was. It’s different to actually see someone you love heartbroken than to just know she’s heartbroken and vulnerable.

          “Lulu… I’m sorry, I really am! I just can’t take it anymore. Kat’s so strong and she doesn’t let anyone see her emotions, she’s like freaking bionic woman. And you! You’re so independent and you won’t let anyone down. You know how hard it is to just live up to you. You’re the golden one, for mom and for dad. You got excellent grades, you’re beautiful, and you take interest in everything. You’re like a perfect role model.” Ally let her tears spill and she ferociously wiped them away. I just shook my head at her chuckling. That small little chuckle grew into a hysterical cry of laughter. I am really crazy, who laughs in a time like this? I do.  Soon enough the dyed blonde in front of me started laughing too. I wiped away my tears of laughter and held my hand in front of me.

          “Friends…?” I stared at her with my hand extended. I was a bit afraid she’d say ‘Hell no bitch!’ Instead she smiled at me and pulled my into a bone crushing hug. For such a small girl she did have some force.

          “Are you kidding me? Bitch we’re sisters!” I really liked having my sister back. It added a bit of normality to my crazy as life. Right then Kat came in and stood with her mouth open in front of us.

          “Why the fuck didn’t I get invited. I wanna be loved too!” We chuckled and added her to our group hug. It finally felt a bit normal, like how it’s supposed to be. But you know, when you’re a Belle, nothing is normal.

          After a few seconds of being in our embrace Kat oh-so-lovingly hollered, “I’m so hungry I can eat a cow. By the way you smell Lucy…”

          I laughed and jumped in the shower with a grin on my face. I might never ever see my mom again but at least I got something, I got my bat shit crazy sisters. It’s something at least. Something indeed.